hold me close and never let me go

i just want to be me. i don't want to pretend to be who I'm not.

Will you love me for who i am?

Hello people.

in response to what old man(JEM) said, i have made the fonts smaller. hahaha. man. no one read instructions and nobodies care to tag me about the stupid three things *roll eyes*. nvrm.

anyway, i just wana encourage James and tell him to just relax about tomorrow :D its a worship unto God and need not be too scared or anything alright. the most you sing w/o the mic if you are THAT scared. but i believe you are strong and courageous like what the bible command us to be. chills~

so like what i said the previous post, i met up with elson today :D

my maid didnt come my house to pack up for me! HAHA. and you know what my aparrently so called-maid's mum said? that my maid is hers for today. HAHA. dangs - even her mum is JEALOUS.

ok. back to the topic. met elson and we went to mac to eat. HIS TREAT! hahha. sooo... he was SUPPOSE to do some work using the computer to go the school's website. but the website was under construction. LAUGHS!! (mock lah) hahahha. then macdonald's crew was chasing people away due to lack of vacancy for other customers to eat. so elson and i went to CC intending to watch movies from his laptop. when we reached the study room, it was FILLed with peeps. so we ended up like beggars sitting at the open space. :D baby came to pass us her earpiece. THANKYOU! ok. elson was perspiring like MAD - i remain calm like ever. AHAH. kidding. that's because he was in jeans and i was in FBT =.=

so we decided to take the mrt and watch the movie cause there is AIRCON. BUT there was no electrical appliances to charge the com. so we returned to mac to watch some basketball show lah. damn nice :D

oh elson. it was a great day today lahhh. haha. things wont be better if i spend the whole day with baby! IM SICK OF HER! haha. kidding :D real great to have you spend the day with me. besides i learn maths from you! haahaa. THANKYOU! you better treat me nice ah. later after i go SP see shuai ge ignore you ah! hahah

after which met baby to cycle!first we cycled to safra. wanted to go sembawang park but baby complained she was too tired. WAHAHA. so we went to seletar and bike and see the nature and the sun :D real beautiful. took some pictures. shall upload soon :D then we headed to the stadium to rest and off we went home to bathe and now she is beside me eating maggie! haha. AGAIN~ dear baby, thank u for your encouraging words that lifted my spirit. ohohoh. pictures pictures! :D

baby said that everyone actually has a soft heart. (which i totally agree. no one is born evil right?) so i asked if i looked tough on the outside and she said yes. so do i really look tough on the outside? if appearing strong already got myself so hurt, what would my world be if i ever appear vulnerable.

- on the verge of tears. i can't do this aymore.

spoke to daddy on the phone today and i cried. due to sadness or happiness? i dno.

- tell me what you know about me. tell me that you know I am not what i appear to be. Tell me, O tell me. i need to know, i need to hear those words that come out right from where life exist.

i reply my tags here okay. cause i forgot to reply those earlier ones :)

s0nn: hahas of cos i wan go with you la dumb dumb.my meimei leii.i wish tt tt day wil faster come seeing eu in SP.(:

grace: DUH~ i know you are my FAN thats why you wana go school with me THAT BADLY. HAHA

Zhiwei: hhas... yupp.. veri nice.. urs?

grace: yeahyeah. i lovemine too. im so obsess with it i wear it darn frequently :P

James: :)

grace: :D

FAITH: grr. she is matured yet nonsensical. HAHA. she's a extreme creature. she can go extremely quiet or extremely mad. extremely girly or extremely sloppy. extremely rough or extremely gentle.

grace: in short, she is just trying to say im an extreme :S BEWARE!!

FAITH: but that is just so G-R-A-C-E !

grace: of course its just so me. ha! its me you are describig WHATTT

s0nn: eh dun wan tag you 3 gd tings.LOl.eu didnt reply my tag luhh.ill tell you tml insteaddd.LOL.eh i guess tml will be a great day out?filled with you and yr crappy stuff.=.=

grace: another one who dont read instructions. haha. i dun care. tag me!!! haha. it sure willl. and it really depends. HA! so how crazy you want me to be? :D

jem: what hughe letters ... the fonts are really big...

grace: HAHA. im afraid old man like you have difficulties in seeing small words you see. arent i considerate? HAHAH

let me start with telling you what happened EARLY IN THE MORNING at about 7.25am.

The stupid school gate just shut right in front of my eyes. damn.

its just a pathetic FIVE minutes. so stingy for what...

sooooo the latecomers aka me and some friends got 'escorted' to the general office.

so when my name was called... LIN YANJUN.

i walk to the DM and he asked me how many times late already.

I PROULDY told him

ONCE :D (what good girl i am)

hahah. no lah. i was late the third times but somehow the first two times i just walk into school openly. just nice the sercurity guard disappear so i was off the hook.

haha. the DM said.. WOW. so good ah. dont need detention lah! YEAH!!!!

:):):):):):):)

anyway i reallllyyy cant afford to go for detention today

have a date with darling to celebrate our.....1 yr 6 mths! hehehe.

so we went to K box at AMK hub and spend bout 3 hrs there?

hmm. rather boring.

she sang her song i sang mine.

not much interaction.

ohh. afterwhich we were on our way home via the MRT.

in the train i suddenly turn super crappy. initially the whole noon was silence one. we didnt spoke much.

but after thatt.......... you know what....... ;P

i just made jokes out of nothing.

let me give a glimpse of it.

faith was holding grace's hands cause the train were very packed and she nearly fell.

so.. grace said.... 'oei. later people think we lesbians ah.. we hold hands in public lidat..'

so grace released faith's hand on purpose and gave the bitchy face.

somehow my brain cells went wild and i start talking nonsense.

i said 'faith, dont chen ji touch me. don't think today we finally got er ren shi jie you can chi dou fu ok.. '

as usual.. she gave me the dumb innocent face.

then she threaten to pull down the zip of my jacket.

FYI, i didnt wear shirt inside.

obviously you know what i wearing inside lah HAHAH!

so i said ' she's taking opportunity to see my RED HOT *** and that she has been peeking at it all the time' :S

SHE CONFESSED and said ' no i nvr peep. i was staring at it all along openly. '

see! she confessed!!! HAHAHA. nonsensseeee....

okok. so we went to meet jerren to borrow his bike.

on our way there, i still continued crapping.

watch this. crap :)

as usual, its blur. butttt enjoy anyway, if you catch the joke, you catch it.

ps: i did bathe and i do smell nice. hahha. this shirt is not the shirt i wore the other day when faith came my house. mine you. the name ob this shirt was shanjie. on the other shirt was grace :)

so we biked first to yishun park and played swing. then wanted to play with candles. but perhaps faith really have that much faith that we can use wood and microscope to start a fire, she didnt bring a lighter =.= so we went bike to NBSS, shaunessy and return the bike to jerren.

WHAT GREAT DAY TODAY =)

- our conclusion. money cant buy some joy and happiness. even things that requires no money but SWEAT like cycling can make our day.

okay people. TAG ME and say out THREE things you think of me. good or bad.
AHHAH. i will do some reflection whether is is good or bad. oh. and put in three things that you want me to know about you

plans for tomorrow- will be meeting ELSON. and he is treating me to lunch and dinner!!
WEE~~ Grace is so blessed and loved by people around :D

ROMANTIC PRINCESS IS SO DAMN NICEEEEE!!!!!!!
awaiting the next few episodees to be uploaded.

wu zun is so gorgeous *melts*

ok. so today i skipped school. early in the morning i really had the feeling of giving school a miss so i phoned faith and TADAH. we skipped school together. haha.

and oh are we so drenched today.

borrowed money from C initially to go K Box and play but things just didnt turn out well.

but its OK :)

the teacher called to ask why i didnt attend school

my reason? OH RASHES.

teacher : are you seeing the doctor?

grace : erm. no. im afraid they will give me injection (like they always do)

teacher : oh. so i assume you have ur own medication?

grace : oh. yeah. Of course ;)

and boo! im off the hook - safe and sound

Crazy day ? YEAH :)

- see for yourself the video. OH. FOR YOUR INFORMATION , it's LAME~ and its so not clear. but who cares.
haha. but then again, I didnt force you to watch what.............

CAM-WHORE ~~~

okay. appparently it was a studying day for us.

so after we had an appointment with God, we TRIED to study =)

let me emphasis again - TRIED

so we ended up taking photos and stupid videos.

but so damn fun! hhahahah.

anyway had dinner with faith and mum and we went to renew my CC card.

then sign up for membership to study at the study room. damn quiet and peaceful.

OHOH. and tomorrow, i will have a free maid coming to my house to clean up the mess for me ~

HAHAH. CAN YOU GUESS WHO IT IS???

let me TRY to help you visualise the mess of my home.

firstly, clothes are hanging out of the sides of the double-deck bed.

next, books are everywhere on my table, book shelf.

IT TAKES AGES JUST TO FIND ONE STUPID BOOK

then, i misplaced my chemistry paper.

damn. my file is so thick i stuff other worksheets in my fulscap paper etc etc.

so this means heavy school bag for me EVERYDAY!


elson. my L1 R5 20 lahh. haha. they moderated. I believe i can do it!


so a day just flew away like that. JIA YOU GRACE!!

BEE-BOO!

gees~ just came from school waiting for faith to come my house and eat maggie mee!

hahhaha. any kind soul out there sympathise with us and wana give us money to eat abalone?

=)))))

we booked an appointment with god later after food! haha.

gna take the guitar and worship and pray and read bible!!

just like what baby and i did the other day.

both of us are actually quite tempted to do somwthing else. but

NO!!

- we wana be God's delight and let our yes be yes and our no be no =)

When you are busy with God's work, He is busy with yours!

sooo. after which we gona go study. as for the venue...

again - its for US to know, for you to guess :)

i bet you don't know where.

oh yeah-I'm so happy today! haha

msg elson in the morning to rant at him.

thank you for encouraging me!

hearing that you scored 29-30 points for L1R4 during prelims really encouraged me! haha.

WEIRD..

(im like telling everyone your results? WAIT. but you know what? he got into a business course in SP that many people want ok! OR MAYBE HE IS JUST THERE TO SEE GIRLS ~)

=P

people, if you think it's too late - think again!

ohohh. james will be leading worship with me this sunday. ALL THE BEST

I want the whole world to know.

She stole my fries and ate though she is SICK

not my fault if she fall sick-er tomorrow! haha.

haha. i admit i took this photo to serve as an evidence. wahaha.

she claimed that she cant eat macdonald's food cause she is sick. and she went against what she had spoken!!! HAHAHAH! andandand she ATE ICE CREAM! ok fine~ i feel like I am reporting her every movement. guys, if you are interested in her, just tell me. i will tell you her EVERY SINGLE MOVE. WAHAHAH! =)

anyways. studying sucks. my eyes feels as if they gona shut any moment when i open the book. stupid. maybe macdonalds and cafe is just not the place. anyway, its lantern festival today!!
when we headed home we saw many little children playin candles!

had a great laugh just now. Aloysius msg me to ask if i was at mac so i called him. he said he walk past me three times and i didnt saw him =.= the funniest thing is this. he said 'how i know you nvr see me ah. you there smile smile. i thought you smiling to me ' WAHAHA.
i LOVE MY COUSIN - he is so darn cute

playing candles arent the loviest memory i had. it's the worst. DAMN. rmb last yr when me and my friends played candles on a normal day and some idiots complain andand the police and FIRE ENGINE CAME .what is this.....so exaggerating.

-okay. nownownow im feeling so irritated. i think im having rashes again ( ezymia if that's how u spell it) im so scared it will spread again..

sing with me till dawn

sing with me till dawn

OH-SO-RANDOM.

i know what you are thinking- WHAT?! YOU CHANGED BLOGSKIN AGAIN?

yeah. im too free you see~

as if. im so sick of all the previous skins and i honestly arent satisfied with them.

maybe i am now. okay. so the plan today was to go school to study - ALONE.

faith. i take back my words ~

I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE.

NO FUN

okok. we just got our prelim results back. like always. I get 23 points for L1R4.

not bad luh~ imagine by Os i will do SO WELL (HA!) don't lose up hope you see.

Im glad i FAILED none

If not, i will be facing NON-STOP nagging from mummy that im always using the computer.

What to do? my face is stuck to the screen, my ass is stuck to the seat (HAHA!)

GGGGRRRAACCEEEE~~

Fine.

I promise I will let this blog rot for the time being (as if)

I better be serious and the studying later at macs better be a success.

I'm sick of cafe. sick of the food. sick of the people there.

duh~

but home is definitely a no-no for studying. you really duno how messy this girl is.

but well, God is good.

He placed ppl like Faith who cant stand messiness to clean up after me.

=P to my advantage anyway.

so anyhow. school is a crying session for (not me). -for you to guess, for US to know.

hey you. you owe me one! haha. shiok only lah you. you get to hear the composer sing for you.

what honour you know.

people queue till hong kong also don't get to hear.

HAHAHA

whatever.

after really torturing myself and not eating, i CAN'T take it anymore.

so i cooked maggie mee.

YEAH ~ i did say it was unhealthy.

buttt... YOU ps me! haahah.

if i really end up at the hospital, you better feel guilty man.

ohohoh. so today someone is down with the name SISSY for life.

HAHA~

what gentleman :)

im booked on FRIDAY by ***** :D

if you are that free then enjoy guessing. LOL~

what are we gona do?

CYCLE!

man. ages since i did that. maybe we will lose a few calories.

but oh. i just remembered. arent we going jalan kayu (however u spell it) to eat prata? YUMMY!

so cycling wont really help lose weight.

BUT. fun always comes first for grace.

its a fact. AN OBVIOUS fact that if by now you still don't know - you can consider reflecting about what you know about me.

HAHA! kidding.

i really marvell at how long i can just sit here and do nothing but type. oh well. im just addicted to blogging. If blogging is a job, i really wont think twice about taking up that job know. you get paid to do something you like. which reminds me - MUSIC! okok. up on ur feet and get mugging!

tatatatata. work hard cause you wont wana live to regret.

- I love my new jacket (=

anyways. baby came to my house today. gna go to mum's room and talk (haha)

WITH THE AIRCON- HEAVEN ON EARTH?

haaaha. yeah. for me, it is.

yesterday dad came to yyb with me.

-it was a dream came true-

During worship a.serene got him to hug me. tears just flowed down.( my dad keep saying don't cry already ok =.-) LOL~

all i knew was that the BIG thing of my life is coming to pass SOON.

___________________________________________

okok. enuf. today in school i was thinking of blogging this. about friends who played a part, and once played a part in my life and to thank you guys =)

shuhui

- you know, i don't care what others may say about this friendship but i want you to know that the day it all started I already knew in my heart that i want us to experience a friendship that you never had before.

i know that it is very tough for you and my heart saddens to see you like this.

Thankyou for showing a side of you that you never thought you ever will.

ANDANDAND i really enjoy doing little crazy things for you like...............

writing pages of letter and drawing, ANDAND shopping at the supermarket with my uniform and having ppl staring at me andand cooking for you =) it's nice to know that someone like you who is similar to me - the things and the way we think. How our giftings cause us to pain for one another when the other is sad. HAHA! thankyou for holding on together with me. thankyou for not giving up each time the pain got so real and tough. thankyou for doting on me, on your darlings =) you were always a blessing around us. really. you are indeed that wise consellor that many people can turn to whom you will not reject and judge <3>

Faith

hello there =)

let me recall. today is the 1 yr 5 mths 24 days of our friendship.

hahahhahaha. in this many months, i guess you were pretty surprise a human like me existed? wahhaa. really blessed my heart to see you grow here. let me introduce to you the steps to such friendship

- jealousy

-envy

-competition

-confrontations

-pride

-selfishness

and of course. the most important key is love, love, love and more love.

if this key is not in, it would have died long ago.

love conquers all indeed.

thankyou for trusting me all this while and believing in me. you are my pride =)

I cant assure you its smooth sailing. but i assure you. THERE LL BE GREATER FIRE! HAHA!

but with greater fire comes deeper friendship. we went through a lot of happiness, sadness, and a fair share of pain to get here. thankyou for loving me though it is hard. you understand pass those spoken words. you know what a smile means. you will be a great leader. believe in yourself .i will spam your butt real hard if you dare say you are not good enough! haha!!! kidding! HUGGSS YOU.

Miracle

babybabybaby. BIG BABY. hehehe. known you since i was primary five? WOWWW.

haha. i managed to tahan you so long ah! hahah!! kidding =)

you were always very encouraging. a sweet and sensitive spirit that cheers me up when im down and sad. when i look at our past neoprints.. OMG! haha! i miss my long hair~~ ookkk. stop complaining. back to the topic. honestly in the past, i thought you were the last person who will come church with me! haha! but TADAH! you are here. wellwellwell. baby is growing up well and beautiful - shall thinking of upgrading you to toddler? ahahah.

thank you for studying with me at the night daily. and honestly, you were the one who kept the friendship in the past.

if then you had not called me to eat with you, today we may not even be friends =)

thankyou for giving this friendship a chance and allowing me to be the listening ear.

looking at your past, you always hold leadership roles. know that you have the qualities and you are called to be the head and not the tail. do not fear man =) believe and ur life will be miracles upon miracles.

love you.

Michelle

=)=)=)=)=)=)=)

just got to know you for about a month?

yet you have impacted my life and is involved in my life.

being the TALKATIVE and a naturally good speaker you bring smiles to faces of many-including me. the dramatic you, honest you, flamboyant you - i enjoy every bit (sounds a lil *ahem)

you know what you mean to me. though many times we cant really connect cause of the background, im glad god placed you in my life. loves~

Jeanette

it pains my heart to say you cry each time.

you are little darling and i really wana see you settle down.

how my spirit crys out for you when i see those pain and hurts in your eyes.

this home in yyb is always open to you. i love you

Elson

BIG BULLY! hahaha. thank you for caring for me so much. scolding me for not revealing to you when im sad and hurt. haha. its nice to know that you care and irritate me frequently with the dumb calls at night! too bad my phone is off. ahha! looking forward to next yr to go school with you :)

daniela

thank you for playing such a big part in my life. you were like the spark.

w/o you, i wont be who i m today. you were the one who brought me to class and here is where i have grown. i may be some random girl out there if i nvr met you. thankyou.

bernice

I love you - more than words =)

HOLA

School is starting tomorrow.

I hereby declare that the battle starts tomorrow

school will be open till 8 tmr.

i have nvr really given my best all my life in anything i do.

As of today, what i do i will give my best.

even loving you-s

:):):):):):):):):):):)::):):):):):):)

You Make a Great First Impression

You can handle almost any social situation with grace, even the tricky ones. Strangers often find you charming and interesting. You are often remembered fondly. Even if you're not naturally outgoing, you can make conversation with anyone if you need to. Whether you were born this way or had to work to get here, you are definitely charismatic. You're popular and well liked. People definitely look forward to being around you. Your social connections bring you a full and rich life. You understand how important it is to make a lasting impression.

What Kind of First Impression Do You Make?

All i know is that I LOVE YOU

and i wana do all my best to be there for you.

When i couldnt get your present my heart just shattered.

You are darn important to me.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:DD:D:D:D:D

Just came back from movies with weini

881.

pretty dumb show.

i wana fall asleep. Dangs. Just not my cup of tea.

Took neos and bought a jacket

i lovesss jackets :)

Tmr gna wear dunks (if that's how you spell it)

suddenly - meaning w no particular reason - i just want to say thank you to people who have played a part in my life.

even if i once had bad blood with you or whatever.

Cause it's you guys that help me to grow.

Looking forward to tomorrow :)

Goodie nights.

In life there are many choices to be made.

Who you are today are the choices you make of yesterdays.
Who you are tomorrow are the choices you make today.

there are choices you can make to cause a situation become worst or better.

It's time to grow up, grace.
Time to die to your flesh and desires.
Time to love.

So would i chose to still be hurt by you
or shut you away from me.
Half truth kills.

First two periods of school was mother tongue. darling and I had free periods cause we arent retaking.
so ... school rules stated that we HAD to go to the library.
apparently we were talking about abstract things on the way up to the library.
Neither of us knew exactly the meaning so i said we shall go to the library and check up the dictionary.
The moment we laid hands on the dictionary, we both started learning new words.
page after page after page.
before we knew it, more than half an hour's time had just slipped pass our fingers. HA !
don't we just sound hardworking?

met daddy for LUNCH :D
He met me at the NTUC bus stop to pass me money
andandand. He will have a new job as of tomorrow !
which meant that he is free on sundays to come church with little gracey!!
YIPPY!
after which we seperated ways and i stroll blithely home.

oh. to update on yesterday's post.
Mum didnt reprimanded me for the bill.
She told me nicely that my bill had exploded. strangely strange
but oh well :D
it's to my gain anyway - so I shall not question it. HA~
oh. and I highly doubt I will be going prom.
about 15 % I'm going?
unless you are that GOOD you can persuade me to go ;)

WOW

bill for this month : $ 90 +++

TICK- TICKLE- TACK

Grace, your true talent is abstract reasoning
Your ability to look at information abstractly means you have a rich imagination.

You're one of those rare people who can
mix two unrelated ideas together to come up with a great new one.
(faith sure can testify to that :D )
Most people aren't as skillful as you are at applying knowledge outside of its usual context.

You scored highest on abstract reasoning.
Your combination of strategic thinking and creativity can be an incredible value in both business and social environments.
(HEHEHEHH. yup. i have rich imagination. i enjoy being rare =P )

Grace, you follow your heart when it comes to success
You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals.
You've got a strong sense of right and wrong,
and want to let people know when they've crossed the line.

Sure,
there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument.
But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.

But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause,
it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate.

It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in.
So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!



Well, everything's not quite roses and teddy bears for you,
but you do tend to look on the bright side of life. Sure, you sometimes
bitch and moan about your problems
(YES I SURE DO )(who doesn't?), but deep down you're pretty sure that everything will eventually turn out fine.(DUH)
When the weather man says it's going to be sunny, you leave your umbrella at home. In general, you like to be around people,
and you try to make new friends when you can. You do your best to take things at face value, rather than making mountains out of molehills.
Basically, the world is sort of like a big coconut to you: tough and hairy on the outside, but, when you get down into it, there's good stuff inside.


Grace, you are Balanced-brained
That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain,
depending upon a given situation. When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain,
which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art
opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over. While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies,
you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain.

This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker.

The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel
paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.

Grace, your connection type is The Networker
There's no doubt about it: You like to be in the know,
and you spend a lot of time checking in with friends and family to find out what they're up to. You're a networker in the most natural sense and
probably are better at keeping other people in touch than they are. What is it about you?
Your easy-going style, your sincere desire to hook up the people you like in your life? You're just someone who doesn't take relationships for granted.



Your type is the Artiste <3
Creative. Sensitive. A bit offbeat.
Your type is the Artiste,

a unique guy who knows how to express himself in many ways, whether it's through words,music, or attire.
You're attracted to his unconventional ways and his remarkable talents.
He doesn't feel compelled to abide by society's norms.He believes that individuality is the key to happiness, and everything he does is a reflection of his "inner self."
You fall head-over-heels for such confidence and style. Whether he's

playing a song he wrote for just you (drop dead gorgeous)

or writing you a love letter, this guy knows how to make you feel special.
He's in touch with his feminine side and doesn't need to assert his masculinity to feel manly. If we were to paint a picture of your future, the Artistewould definitely be part of it!



Grace, your most unique quality is that you're unusually Inspirational
You inspire others around you with your creative energy and thirst for new experiences.
You are exceptionally curious
and aren't afraid of learning new things — which is probably because you tend to focus on the potential positive outcome of any experience rather than dwelling on the potential negatives. You are a true explorer in the word.
You want to understand and experience it all, and you're especially open to new feelings and ideas.
Compared to others who are open, you are unusually appreciative of art and beauty. (I LIKE THAT) Only 2.1% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths.

beeboo!

studied chemistry just now.

eh. rather satisfied =D

Just before i went home, i went to buy jap seaweed to eat.

when i offered miracle the (crazy girl) the food.

She declined and i said 'oh well. its to my advantage anyway.'

then i made those sound like you are tempting your fellow friends to tell them that WOW the food is great.

she said 'stop seducing me'

and i said its to my advantage she was not seduced.

somehow her mind ran duno where and she gave me that stupid face.

HA!!

then i explained to her that she dont get seduced is to my advantage cause i dun have to share lah.

CAUGHT THE JOKE?

NO?

THAT'S TOO BAD.

good nights!

Just came back from school.

Oh well. I just work up from lala land yesterday while doing sub science paper.

I have a vision - music and audio technology.

Yet I'm not doing anything about it.

So at the end of the day, it is with a vision with no action which apparently meant DAYDREAMING.

So in any case, we had a talk on JC and Poly today.

eh. obvoiusly i didnt gave a thought for JC. It's apparently OUT of my choice :D

SOSOSOSO.

For obviously not the first time im saying this again

- I'm STUDYING!!

today was really the first time i sincerely appreciated what the school had done for us.

In replacement for encouraging words, they traded it from

mere words to actions.

school is going to be open till 8.30pm starting from next monday and we will be having 'tuition' from our own school teachers. like WOW. they made the effort to stay back to answer and of our enquiries with that certain subject. and for your information, They don't get extra pay.

but well, i sympathise with the aunties who closes the school gates cause they have to stay back with us too.

(HHAHAHHA)

oh. I received an email from Elson and i was just too lazy to send it to others so the most convenient way is to just post it here =D

If you are free or bored, no harm reading through it -

it won't bite you know

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Every Sunday afternoon, after the morning service at the church,

the Pastor and his eleven year old son would go out into their town and hand out Gospel Tracts. This particular Sunday afternoon,

as it came time for the Pastor and his son to go to the streets with their tracts,

it was very cold outside, as well as pouring down rain.

The boy bundled up in his warmest and driest clothes and said,

'OK, dad, I'm ready.'

His Pastor dad asked, 'Ready for what?'

'Dad, it's time we gather our tracts together and go out.'

Dad responds, 'Son, it's very cold outside and it's pouring down rain.'

The boy gives his dad a surprised look,

asking, 'But Dad, aren't people still going to Hell, even though it's raining?'

Dad answers, 'Son, I am not going out in this weather.'

Despondently, the boy asks, 'Dad, can I go? Please?'

His father hesitated for a moment then said,

'Son, you can go. Here are the tracts, be careful son..'

'Thanks Dad!'

And with that, he was off and out into the rain.

his eleven year old boy walked the streets of the town going door to door and handing everybody he met in the street a Gospel Tract.

After two hours of walking in the rain, he was soaking,

bone-chilled wet and down to his VERY LAST TRACT.

He stopped on a corner and looked for someone to hand a tract to,

but the streets were totally deserted.

Then he turned toward the first home he saw and started up the sidewalk to the front door and rang the door bell. He rang the bell, but nobody answered.

He rang it again and again, but still no one answered.

He waited but still no answer. Finally, this eleven year old trooper turned to leave,

but something stopped him. Again, he turned to the door and rang the bell and knocked loudly on the door with his fist.

He waited, something holding him there on the front porch!

He rang again and this time the door slowly opened. Standing in the doorway was a very sad- looking elderly lady. She softly asked, 'What can I do for you, son?'

With radiant eyes and a smile that lit up her world,

his little boy said, 'Ma'am, I'm sorry if I disturbed you,

but I just want to tell you that *JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU* and I came to give you my very last Gospel Tract which will tell you all about JESUS and His great LOVE.'

With that, he handed her his last tract and turned to leave.

She called to him as he departed. 'Thank you, son! And God Bless You!'

Well, the following Sunday morning in church Pastor Dad was in the pulpit.

As the service began, he asked, 'Does anybody have any testimony or want to say anything?' Slowly, in the back row of the church, an elderly lady stood to her feet.

As she began to speak, a look of glorious radiance came from her face,

'No one in this church knows me. I've never been here before.

You see, before last Sunday I was not a Christian. My husband passed on some time ago,

leaving me totally alone in this world. Last Sunday, being a particularly cold and rainy day, it was even more so in my heart that I came to the end of the line where I no longer had any hope or will to live.

So I took a rope and a chair and ascended the stairway into the attic of my home.

I fastened the rope securely to a rafter in the roof,

then stood on the chair and fastened the other end of the rope around my neck.

Standing on that chair, so lonely and brokenhearted I was about to leap off,

when suddenly the loud ringing of my doorbell downstairs startled me. I thought,

'I'll wait a minute, and whoever it is will go away.'

I waited and waited, but the ringing doorbell seemed to get louder and more insistent,

and then the person ringing also started knocking loudly.

I thought to myself again, 'Who on earth could this be?

Nobody ever rings my bell or comes to see me.'

I loosened the rope from my neck and started for the front door, all the while the bell rang louder and louder.

When I opened the door and looked I could hardly believe my eyes,

for there on my front porch was the most radiant and angelic little boy I had ever seen in my life.

His SMILE, oh, I could never describe it to you!

The words that came from his mouth caused my heart that had long been dead,

TO LEAP TO LIFE as he exclaimed with a cherub-like voice,

'Ma'am, I just came to tell you that JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU.'

Then he gave me this Gospel Tract that I now hold in my hand.

As the little angel disappeared back out into the cold and rain,

I closed my door and read slowly every word of this Gospel Tract.

Then I went up to my attic to get my rope and chair. I wouldn't be needing them any more.

You see---I am now a Happy Child of the KING. Since the address of your church was on the back of this Gospel Tract,

I have come here to personally say THANK YOU to God's little angel who came just in the nick of time and by so doing,

spared my soul from an eternity in hell.' There was not a dry eye in the church.

And as shouts of praise and honor to THE KING resounded off the very rafters of the building, Pastor Dad descended from the pulpit to the front pew where the little angel was seated.

He took his son in his arms and sobbed uncontrollably.

Probably no church has had a more glorious moment, and probably this universe has never seen a Papa that was more filled with love & honor for his son...

Except for One.

Our Father also allowed His Son to go out into a cold and dark world. He received His Son back with joy unspeakable,

and as all of heaven shouted praises and honor to The King,

the Father sat His beloved Son on a throne far above all principality and power and every name that is named. Blessed are your eyes for reading this message.

Don't let this message die, read it again and pass it to others. Heaven is for His people! Remember, God's message CAN make the difference in the life of someone close to you. Please share this wonderful message... 'Faith is the affirmation and the act that bids eternal truth be present fact.'

Just 3 Words

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back -

1. Time

2. Words

3. Opportunity

Three things in life that can destroy a person -

1. Anger

2. Pride

3. Unforgiveness

Three things in life that you should never lose-

1. Hope

2. Peace

3. Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable -

1. Love

2. Family & Friends

3. Kindness

Three things in life that are never certain -

1. Fortune

2. Success

3. Dreams

Three things that make a person -

1. Commitment

2. Sincerity

3. Hard work

Three things that are truly constant - Father - Son - Holy Spirit

I ask the Lord to bless you, as I pray for you today; to guide you and protect you, as you go along your way. God's love is always with you, God's promises are true. And when you give God all your cares, you know God will see you through. Pass this along to People you want God to Bless!

~~~***My God Reigns***~~~

No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.

No one stays in love by chance,it is by WORK.

And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE

'Whoever acknowledges Me before men, I will acknowledge him before My Father in heaven. But whoever disowns Me before men, I will disown him before My Father in heaven' - Matthew 10:32

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wellwell. you have come to the end of the story.

Much patience you have i will say - just like me HA!

May this inspire you, inspire your life.

This just taought me how a little action plus a heart full of love can change the course of a person's life.

-signing off to do house work and study-

GRACE

The Nails in His Hands

The nails in Your hands

the nails in Your feet

They tell me how much You love me

The thorns on Your brow

they tell me how You bore so much
shame to love me

And when the heavens pass away

All Your scars will still remain

and forever they will say just how much

You love me

So I want to say

Forever my love, forever my heart

Forever my life is Yours

Forever my love, forever my heart

Forever my life is Yours

Forever my love

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It was this song that brought me out of melancholism mode.

Perhaps you can say this song gave me a slap on my face.

i was dwelling and dwelling on my pain yet when i heard this song, tears lubricated my eyes.

It reminded me of how much Jesus went through to bring me who I am today.

All that was in my mind throughout was only all the wrongs i had to endure, all the heartaches.

I know that I'm not alone.

He's with me.

Forever my life is yours

to grace :

our friendship must be part of God's plan

He allowed me to feel your pain

He allowed me to smile with you

To cry for you when your heart is numbed

To be your listening ear when the sky seems dark

You understand when no one can

You hold me when i can't stand

You're the one that really cares

God must have heard my cry for a true blue friend

I love you my dearest pal

Hehehhe. Michelle is so sweet :D

Thank you.

Im so happy, so touched.

But can i just be a human friend? cause i dun wana be blue.

HAHAHA!! kidding kidding!!

I love you!!!!

I don't know what difficulties we will face in the future.

all i know is that i wana conquer mountains with you.

HUGGIES!

And of course not forgetting Faith

wellwellwell. we have been through so much. We both thought that this incident willl break this friendship. Never knew we could be back like before. In fact, better than before. All that was in my mind all this while was that i don't want to break this friendship. I knew in my heart all along that every tough situation that we had to tackle had only two routes - make or break this friendship. We are where we are today because we held on. because of the choices we made to hold on and not break. Any one would have chose to break such friendship but we didnt. Today, we celebrate the fruit of success together that no one else can understand except us.

I wrote that song for you. and it was this song that gave me strength to hold on, because of the promise i made to you that none can make and none can break. Ytd, today, tomorrow and forever it will still be the same. OUR LOVE WILL STILL REMAIN.

You are always that precious girl in my heart.

MICHELLE

Thank you for everything.

My first friend who went on her knees for me.

The first friend who HAD PLEASURE doing knee work.

Also the one who satisfy me. Satisfy my soul.

The one who talks with me at the same frequency.

The one that understands or at least sympatise with me.

Your joy is always so infectious. You make me go GUGUGAGA as well!

When you are sad, you make me soo sad with you.

When you don't pick up the phone, you make me so worried for you.

When I'm sad, I think of you.

When I'm happy, I think of you.

When I'm in pain, you understood.

When im torn and all in tears, you were there.

You never look down on me.

Always embraces me.

I can talk about anything and everything under the sun with you.

From the most embarrasing things to the most 'heart' things.

This seems like the most impossible pair.

But we made it.

For a reason we do not know.

For a time we didn't realise.

But the timing was so perfect that you were there.

A thousand words can't describe my gratitute to you.

I'm madly in love with you ;D

PLEASE SCROLL DOWN TO THE FAVOURITE MUSIC BOX AND PAUSE THE MUSIC TO LISTEN TO THE VIDEO

For that special friend

Our friendship

When times are difficult,
I'll look in your eyes and say I love you.
when times are happy now,
I'll hold your hands and walk this journey with you.

Do not fear, do not be afraid,
I will be here with you through life.

And even though circumstances seperate us,
You know our hearts will still be binded together.
None can make and none can break, our love will still remain.
I just want to say this words to you, say it to your face, that I love you

The song composed for you ;D The chords are alittle wrong? but its getting late and im very tired already. I just hope you know what i have not spoken. good nights sweety.

Thats my darling

practicing cannon in D.

man. thats the best song ever.
Its so nice and soothing.

Im in love with it.

And my hands are hurting. ouch. got to press the string so hard...

HAHAHAAHA.

noon

just came back from eating with rachel that idiot.

Smiles little girl.

Open your eyes and see that there are many things around that are very beautiful.

I will always be here.

Anytime =))))

night

Just had a great talk with _____ . had a cry and felt so much lighter now.

went shopping at the supermarket with mummy. hahah. shall have strawberries for breakfast tomorrow! thenthenthen after prelims im coming home to make soup for lunch. yummmyyummy. Grace going healthly. AHAHHA.

oh. Like always, Grace haven't studied for Amaths and Physics tommorow. Somehow the fire always come around this time. but thank God, it's not during the Os.

Lucky MICHELLE!

your prelims are over! :DDD

Be happy while you can alrights.

HOOHOHOH. too bad Os are over before As.

(Stick tongue out) <3<3<3<3

Today is the first day i embark on a journey with my book ;)

Went to meet baby.

Then went to buy a note book and a magazine.

So this is the plain book (excluding the circle circle thing lah)

And this is my book after two hours of hardwork.

wow wow wow. I'm so satisfied.
Title of the book : Love freely given

Have got about three chapters out already? hmm. got the idea but dno how i should write it out yet. nvrm. God will show me as time goes by. HAHA. I'm so excited for the birth of my book. man. my eyes are tired. and i blogged three times already today? ahahha. one day i will be so sick of blogging I will just let it rot. so don't complain.

wellwellwell. every single day i face new challenges. But like what FRIEND said, God will not allow something to happen to us beyond what we can bear. If all this had happened to me days before or years before i would'nt have been able to survive. All this just brings me closer and closer to Him. In the darkest moments are those that are the most glorious.

A pat on your back, Grace. You have grown :D

ps: you-s means manymany you.

Why is this damn world only looking for its' own attention?
Why is the whole damn world demanding my attention?
You, you, and you.
If you-s could just think OUT OF YOURSELVES and know that someone HERE needs attention too.
This fucking girl is fucking pissed.
fucking hurt.
fucking in blood.
every corner i turn i see SOMEONE who wants my attention.
someone who is in pain, someone who is hurt.
all this while I gave all I could. I gave my best.
All your-s joy were my reward.
yet when i am in pain and hurting, you-s arent there.
Get out of your nobl-i-lity.
Im sick of all this.
SICK.
You see the smile. You didnt see the pain.
Dun ASS-U-ME that im happy and that all was well for me- cause they're not.
I dont need 'Friends' who only talk and talk and do nothing. bull-shit.