surprises surprises surprises. EEK. work is overloading. ill-disciplined. at the end of the day, you thought you had done so much. but it results to zero. no fulfilment. its still the same. perhaps worse. don't wana poke my finger into any more stuff. get lost.
sometimes what we perceive is not what was really happening
was suppose to go for band tuning. gave it a miss cause i wana see how this pretty boy of mine is.
brother will be going back to camp tomorrow! that means im left alone to tackle this spoilt doggy! pray everything will go well *fingers crossed*
projects are coming soon. need to do many many many research. BUSY!! anyway, it keeps my mind busy. then i wont go around disturbing all my friends. maybe its a blessing in disguise eh.
i greeted the new addition with a loud scream. apparently my brother said to his friend that my scream was louder than the dog's bark =.-
it came running towards me a split second after warning from mum. gave me a big scare. But anyway, it adores me :) so do I. i guess i will love to rush home every single day just to see this lovely baby of mine.
apparently to sum up the day, i learnt about stars today from daniel. someone who is really deep. everyone was just mesmerised when he spoke. so anyway, the only thing i remember was cyrus (if thats how you spell it) is the brightest start that you can see from earth :) so muych facts just bom-ba-ded my lazy brain. i wonder how humans stuff so much numbers and facts into their brain and have all these knowledge at the tip of their fingers.
to think that i actually wana join a cca that studys on star when i get into SP. oh well. but they are just amazing. there are stars that are red in colour. darn cool :)
According to your score, you have a strong passion and attraction to the aesthetic qualities of life; you greatly appreciate the beauty around you, whether in the form of nature’s masterpieces or man-made designs.
boyboyboy. im STRESSED! its so much work leh... maybe im expecting too much from myself. but i really cant stand the fact that work is piling up on me. not to mention the verses and all. ARGH. crazy teachers. though labour day is a holiday, we still have to study online via e-learning. but have got disciple group. then need to do stupid research that i know nuts about!!
still trying to adapt to the new system and new environment. and STUDY STUDY STUDY! so much work so litttle time. mac's my second home now i guess (:
am i turning into a nerd? HAHHA.
going for percussion tuning on monday. so excited!!!
should you change for the person you love, should you try as hard as you can to be someone that your loved one wants you to be? Or should the person you love accept you just the way you are?
are true friends for life or only for a moment? does God put different friends for you in different stages of your life?
revelations and questions just began to flood my mind these few days. perhaps it makes me feel extra wise. will someone tell me the answer to the questions above?
today's lessons on organisation behaviour was pretty boring... anyway, the only highlight of the day today was DRUM PRACTICE! wohoo! trained from tampines all the way to bishan to meet drum partner :) drums was GREAT! apparently joshua's mood quite good eh. HAHA. though i often dread myself to go practice cause im lazy, i nvr regret it at the end of the day!
oh my. we took bus 156 back to bishan. and the bus is so high tech please. while the music is playing on the bus, at the corner of the screen it writes ' if u want this song, just on ur bluetooth' and i did. and the song was sent to my phone. ZOMG! its super comfy. the bus driver greets u with a smile and a thankyou and a good evening! I told russel i really dun mind seating on this bus forever. its the best bus i have ever taken. cheers to singapore man!
trained from bishan back to khatib and waited for um like one hr!! i didnt know it would take that long!! luckily theres senile to accompany me! :) unlucky thing was this... at the most crucial moment, my phone totally no batt! and im left all alone. ARGH.
i'd love to just sit anywhere near the peaceful waters and just... CHILL. when i can just let my hair down and relax. to just talk all the rubbish without thinking twice and to get charged up for whatever the future may have in store for me :)
i hate receiving calls from you. yet i love you. why cant you just keep your bloody promises and stop promising me things that you cannot achieve. why bring me up to heaven to throw me back down to earth. i dont need these.
when you love someone, tat someone becomes more important than you.
something that i only realise today. somehow all about you can wait.
anyways, i regretted wearing heels today. the bus 969 took one hour to arrive at tampines interchange and waited for half an hour for bus 23. anson called to complain ( of course with the encouragement of grace ) HAHAH. lecture starts at 9 and i reached at 9.15? when u are 15 minutes late u are marked as late and after that you are marked as absent. luckily first week they are lenient so im off the hook!
but its no joke to rush when u are on heels lahhh.. okay whatever.
lecture was so much better than lessons in secondary school cause theres air con! hoho! so anyway, the class all went to play pool at tampines safra. i just... watched....
then headed to tampines mall! Grace did her homework! haha. the rest of the class went home =.=
im the only good girl! but im satisfied lah. proud of myself *claps* think im going to study at tampines mac daily before heading home.
FOR THE PAST SIXTEEN YEARS OF MY LIFE, MY BIRTHDAY NVR FALLS ON EXAMS OR TEST. THIS YEAR I WILL BE MUGGING TO PASS UP REPORT ON 16TH JULY! SOMEONE BANG ME AND LAND ME IN THE HOSPITAL PLEASE
school's great. it turned out better than what i could ever imagine (: met the class before school started for lunch and we all wore black together! great team spirit right!pretty united class. enjoyed myself to the max. im the assistant social rep! the one that will orgainse barbeques and all and just let the class socialize lah.
first we started if introduction and so we were suppose to introduce ourselves, and say whats common about us and whats unique about us. i said the common thing is that i play the guitar and the unique thing is that i play the drums and they broke out into laugher. oh well. apparently there are really many talents in class. woohoo! theres another guitarist. i was suggesting he bring the guitar to school then during the three hours break we got entertainment. HAHA. soon i will 'pycho' him to do so (: He is so tall pls. i said that he was arrogant cause he always look down on me! and he said he was sorry that grace is short. $#^$*$# im wearing heels tomorrow. period.
lecture was boring lah! comm skills. apparently i think its english lessons. ANYWAY, the teacher is so good in her english she uses two to three bombastic words in a sentence =.= kinda leave us hanging nowhere in the air throughout the lesson.
afterwhich we all headed to tampines mall as a class. can you believe it? its only first day of school we wear the same colour shirt, met up as a class before lesson starts and went for dinner as a class! woohoo! im so happy! (: we also bought a cake to celebrate april babies' birthday tomorrow. 1B13 rocks the world man. at TM i went super high. and im named ' ah lian ' by some ah beng =.= but people stood up for me and said im obviously not one! haha. oh please. how can i ever be termed as one. but i guess in the past because of the school uniform, i behave very proper and quiet. like 'no joke' kind of thing. but not that im home clothes i just feel so free to be myself and crap. it just feels like sunday like that. just me. WOOHOO! laughed like mad throughout. anyway laugher is a good medicine to whatever sickness lah. bunch of crazy mates. i love them!
i m enjoying every bit of poly life. never had such fun in my school days ever before. its the start of something new :D
there's so much i wish to say. i may have plan a script before
its so complicated. and i dont wish to go through the same cycle time and again and return back to the starting point. its useless and its a waste of time and energy. so what if it all turns out as what i wish it will? afterall who knows what may happen in the future.
one regret i have in my life. i have always felt that God has called me to music and audio. though i knew it way before the major exams, i did not take it seriously and just get by with O lvls w/o much effort. if i could turn back time, i would have studied hard. perhaps because of this i know i will put in alot of effort in my studies now :)
verse 1: first chance gone and second chance came to pretend or to reveal i'm still young and there's so much more to life what's my heart saying
chorus: He's all that i want all that i wish all that i dream of He's all that i pray all that i gaze all that i think of Is two hearts beating as one
verse 2: here with you holding my breath dreaming bout all that we may be wishing that time would just stop righ tnow to look into your eyes
prechorus: touching my heart feeling whats within all that i found was him
okay. my voice kinda screwed up. afterall i did this at midnight! (: if you have the chance to hear the person singing live, you will sure love it! HOHOHO! hope its a success! goodnights!
true friends are always there ; seasonal friends come and go.
just what is life about? there so many things to know, so many things to experience. it seems never ending. the world is so big... but a little at a time? its mind blowing especially when you meet someone who is a complete opposite from you in terms of views and all. i love my comfort zone and hate to move around and explore what the world has.has a strong aversion to changes always having the uncomfortable feeling of having to leave singapore even if its to malaysia for just a day. i dont like the feeling of losing connection with the friends here in singapore- even if its just a day. but i guess thats what it means to agree to disagree...
but my dear friend said he wants to venture out of singapore to explore all the wonderful things around the world... though singapore is the best country... to me, since its the best country then stay here mah. but i guess as time goes by our thinking will change and our perspective of life will gradually differ. whatever is it, there is just so much more to come. ultimately its how im going to face all that is infront of me... definitely not with open arms. I ABHOR CHANGES!
but as the saying goes... the only thing that is constant in this world is... CHANGES. makes me wana box whoever that came out with this saying. but its true lah. maybe i just hate to face up to reality.
this is the presentation the main com did for us. it was super funny. laugh like MAD! :) the BEST part of camp. woohoo!
anyway im back from two days of lonnggggg orientation. get to meet my classmates. 24 of them in total. it was not as bad as i imagined in to be lah. made friends with Wan fen, a girl who is pretty small in size. overall was okay lah. pretty quiet classmates but i believe we will be bonded and close. received my schedule for school today and handbook and had a taste of what lecture will be like. pretty interesting exposure. anyhow, we will be with our class for one year!
ou lecturer told us that A FOURTH UNIVERSITY WILL BE COMING UP AND THEY WILL BE RECEIVING THEIR FIRST BATCH OF STUDENTS IN YEAR 2011! its just so timely. its the year that miracle, faith, james, rebec, julian, jeffrey, russel and I will graduate! God is just so good isnt he?
a new university means that the number of students they will accept is largely expanded and thus the number of poly grad who have the interest to further their studies have a greater chance to do so locally :) our lecturer suggested to us that we should consider either of this paths now that we are in this course. take up diploma in marketing in year two then go to the uni and study finance, or take up diploma in business and study hospitality in uni.
cause either of this would make us very 'valuable' in the market because both are a very good combination and brings us a class above the rest. in fact above those that simply take accounting or banking kind of thing. i do not know to what extend its true. my initial plan was to take up business in year two and chose finance as one of the elective cause its what im interested in. however, having heard what the lecturer considered, taking finance in university arent a bad idea too. whatever it is, i reckon i will come to a conclusion after i have come into contact with all the electives in year one and would have explored all the subjects and see what i truly enjoy.
so hitherto, my plans are still to go to the university. and of course to be the top 10% of the whole cohort :) apparently in business, the number of students amount to 1730 students and business studies group is in high demand. there is like 550 students in BSG. there are still many people wanting to appeal into our course with grades like 10 and below and my oh my. my grade was like 15? dont know if i should cry with the rest or stand at a corner and grin :P
some classes do not have to go to school on certain days lah. im the unfortunate one :( met our care teacher today. so as of now, im an ADULT! eek. totally abhor it.
but all in all, i can truly agree with what mentor have been teaching us. that one must have a goal. with a goal in mind, we are more concentrated and focused. i never comprehended what she meant until when i enter poly. in the past i never put the lesson to use because im already on the track mid way. but now that poly is about to start, i already had my goals in mind. somehow things dont distract me that easily now. i knew what i want and this makes things so much easier for me. things that does not help me draw closer to my goal is left untouched. one of such included work. i was about to get a job and was pretty sure i can get it. but it involves my time and getting home late which means sleeping late and sleeping through my lectures the next day. it really isnt worth it AT ALL. so i decided to just leave it. MONEY does mean 'something' to me. to all girls in general. who wouldnt want more money to shop and doll ourselves up, to get hold of the latest gadgets, to spend on entertainments like movies. but oh well, i guess i just have to sacrifice all this. afterall its top 10% im aiming. ( even more :P )
i spent the whole day HOME today doing NOTHING! i literally on the computer like five times lah! on and off , on and off, on and off. actually had plans to do some stuff but failed. but anyway will be meeting baby for after her school tomorrow :) Grace is learning to save man. learning to not spend money and end up penniless at the end of the month.
its so sweet to have darlings who loves me and messages me early in the morning to ask how I'm doing and whether i was feeling lonely cause everyone else has started school but ME and asking me out for lunch to love me :) so sweet.
Yahyobabes is truly where home is. its only when you venture out from your sheltered comfort zone that you begin to appreciate the shelter you have and the friends that are there. i used to want so much to run away and out of this comfort zone and see what the world has got to offer. but barely of four days of camp, i really want holidays to be everlasting, never ending. im not ready to take this step out. i don't want to grow up. I don't know what are the things to anticipate out of this comfort zone. it seems like all there sixteen years i have been so well protected. from Daybreak, living under the wings of ACS and JC kids to disciple class under the care of mum serene.
but whether anot im mentally prepared, reality still have to be faced. school is starting. period. anxiety and fears are just occupying the places of my heart. is it because my trust is not in God? i reckon thats why. i face the fears of not being in the good books of my peers. the feares of being an outcast. the fears of isolation. the fears of gossips and slander and backstabbing. theres too much i have not seen and do not want to experience. but i guess i have to come to terms with the fact that i cant please everyone and afterall im not born to please everyone or anyone but only God himself. but yet this few days i havent been really reading His word and spending time with Him.
All this thoughts have really caused me to not be me at all. i force myself to be behind the crowd and not be outstanding in the midst of my other peers. but i have to breakthrough. break out of all this bondages and i know i will.
last but not least, i just want to thank all this special people :)
Dennis for being such a great friend. my apology for making you trip but you made me trip too so its fair and square ah. Glad that we still stayed in contact. Hope the rest of the three years will be great!!! Daniel, for being such a great encourager and comforter. to be that special friend or perhaps 'pen-pal' cause most pen pals have never met each other before & you were a great listening ear :)
went out for dinner with daryl and jerome and faith after yahyobabe. apparently Faith and i were having a hell load of fun entertaining ourselves with the 'pretty girls and handsome boy' nonsense. my oh my. time really just FLY! (does it even have wings?!) four years ago, we landed in the same school, same CCA - netball. two years ago we landed in the same class, same church and changed CCA together to chinese dance! How God really just plan all this nicely - pure perfect. its just amazing cause even when i changed CCA, you changed and PAH-BOOM! we are together again. Then when you just came to YMM im gone to some other place and soon, you came over too. and thus, our 24/7 came about. weekdays are school, weekends are church and class :) i see you every single day and we had so much so much memories and did so many so many things. thick and thin, bitter or sweet, rain or shine, thunder or lightning, chocolates or lollipops =.= i reckon i had taken the time that God has given us for granted. at the back of my mind i though twe will never be seperated so even when we were together there are times when i just remained quiet for to me, time is never running out. BUT boy. we are not in two different schools. my oh my. i chose to think that its for a good cause :)
thanks to daryl for the yummy yummy ice cream from Gelare :D had so much fun just bickering with the guys and faith.
apparently i taught nat and faith the camp cheers. its like so funny and interesting.
the interesting thing is this : two of my group leaders shares the same name as me.
one is : GRACE
the other is : LIM (lin) YANJUN.
together, you get GRACE LIN YANJUN which is yours truly :P
I'm one of the lucky ones to be able to attend the camp cause about half of them are chased home due to limited spaces. THE FOOD IS MA MA MI YA. the best camp food EVER.
so anyway there is gona be another orientation camp this thursday. not overnight :) i sure hope it will turn out well.
andandand. i have one more week left of hols!!!
i pray and pray and pray i will meet a bunch of crazy friends that i can spend the rest of my poly life with. just like faith and her girlfriends. hoho. just that for me, i prefer a mixture of girls and guys.
True friends will go to the ends of the earth 'Till they find the things you need Friends hang on through the ups and the downs Cause they've got someone to believe in
i spent this morning real specially. something out of the norm. well, if course. normally after I wake u in the morning i will automatically walk to the living room and use the computer and when i do that, its for hours - though i really duno whats there to do for HOURS in front of the computer when i only check my friendster and read ppl's blog. even people i have not met before... so does that make me a K-PO? :P
alright. i got up in the morning and then a flood of thoughts just rush through my brain.
1. go to the reservoir.
2. spent time with God.
3. go for lovey's concert.
and so i went to take a refreshing bath. i will never, i repeat NEVER step out of my house w/o first bathing. EVEN though i predicted that i am gona sweat the moment i step out of my house :D so i made my way to the reservoir. it was really really HOT. i was praying for clouds and wind. HEH. so it wasnt that bad afterall. while making my way to my destination i heard loud cheers that came from the stadium. i was guessing that some school is having their sports day.
found myself a comfortable spot and sat down and began reading the word of God. was a real quiet and peaceful place .
as i was really into the word, then i heard a voice beside me that seems to be catching my attention. it was someone who is cutting the grass. you know what im mean? he CHASED me away. cause he got to do his job - cut the grass =.=
so i left and made my way to the stadium. actually i wanted to walk home. in my mind i wanted to go home! but because the path out of the reservoir to my house were the rest of the man cutting grass so i didnt dare to walk there. so the other exit leads me to the stadium. they were indeed having their sports day. the place was crowded with little kids half my size. adorable...
God spoke while i was just sitting there watching the kids compete. the lesson on the three grouips of people went deeper. mentor taught that in life there are basically three groups of ppl.
1 : the competitors 2: audience 3: people who dun even know what is going on.
i made a decision with God that im not going to be an audience anymore. i remembered how when i was in my primary and secondary school days, when i run the race, i knew that i will surly get first and i really got first! not only am i going to be a competitior, im gona start the race knowing that i have won :) the last picture shows a bunch of kids in yellow. they are the team that have won the best house award. and guess what. they are the happiest because they put in their effort to cheer and the rest can only watch their smiling faces but not be able to share the happiness with them. amazing. looking back, i kind of regret not being part of school events. i seem to have miss out on alot. hasnt shyness just taken away so much of my opportunity?
accompanied shuhui to her school in the noon and to the clinic. had a treat to tiramisu in starbucks! i hereby declare my love for tiramisu :)
went to TP to watch lovey's concert and of course, to check what my school is like.HAHA. its real amazing. pretty. its not run down and all. looks rather new. very lively colours that brightens up the whole atmosphere. im looking forward!! camp is just in a few days camp. i really duno what to expect!!
6th april
met up with granny for luch and church. havent met her since new year. haha. you know what i mean... red packets? so we had lunch at city hall. was suppose to meet MH at 4.20 but because i get real rigid when time is involve. so met my granny real ealry. we had like one and a half hour more before times up to meet MH. so we went.... SHOPPING! granny offered to buy me a top and i asked her the budget and she said $60. woohoo! so i picked my top :)
then went for miracle svc and headed to aunt's place to eat. granny and uncle both gave me money!! HAHA. so shiokkk!
When holidays came, i really wanted so badly to workkk cause i wanted $$$. but i told God i will use this holidays to build my foundation and spent time with him. and im paid for doing so.
