I have a crush on flowers :) flowers are pretty and they brightens up my day.

oh hello there. I'm gona get a lappy soon! when i get my lappy, im gona name it. HAHAHAHA.

AND WE COLLIDE

went to mum's place at boon lay today. what a pity i couldnt go yesterday. All thanks to cereal and amanda for doing me the great favor thats why i could leave but anyway i was still close to half an hour late to meeting spiritual mum.

Was reading the bible on the train and asked this black who happened to sit beside me how long more it would take for me to reach boon lay then he started chatting with me. He pointed to my book and asked if it was a bible and apparently he is from Zion. so cool. he started preaching to me and God spoke through him. The answers i needed just came out of his mouth. God reassured me and things just dont seem that bad anymore. I TAKE YOU ON ,CHALLENGES.

ANYHOW, mum bought me my favourite sparkling juicyyyy! wanted to get starbucks tiramisu but my wallet was empty :'/ had a great talk and laugh with dad and mum and some cruel joke.
Just before i left, mum passed me a book that she felt God wanted her to buy for me. and I WAS SHOCKED at the title. HAHA. whatever.

Its exams next week already! then it will be H O L I D A Y S !

i miss rynna :( you woman. always so busy to rush off!

STAYOVER

darling glenice
aren't she just adorable? Imagine i was messaging with her in Accounts class. the thought of it just tickles me. anyway, I was her english and maths teacher for the day. writing on the whiteboard is oh-so-fun :) i feel so smart. YEA. obviously. a poly student teaching a primary school girl. how stupid can i feel right?

guess it was full moon? it was a real beautiful sight and the moon felt so near i wish i could reach it.

beautiful moon , heart to heart talk , slow walk back home.
What more can i ask for? :)
SATISFIED is the word people.



this is oh so long ago. this is qirong. nickname cereal. lovely girl. Thanks for accompanying me run round engine school to get my notes!! SWEET~



WOMAN and tessa! group members for orgh beh and CSA! arent she hardworking? HAHA.
i really must say we cant trust pictures. though the picture reflects her doing some work, well, in reality you really dont know. HAHAHAA! ops.


Thats....
M-E!
with rynna's phone zi-lian-ing :) apparently we have the same phone lah. was kinda embarassing cause i sense people staring at me. which was right cause after that the ynagged at me and said i was narcissist. if thats how you use it?



anson and johann! okay. we went crazy cause everyone's mind was perceiving things beyond what its meant. HMM... CINE... leisure :D


thats US! this amanda was $%&*$*. she purposely took ssssssssuuppppppeeeeerrrrr long to take this picture and our cheeks were like super tired lah. i was complaining thats why my mouth is like not really posed for pictures. oh well. i will get back one day!





woots! met lovey for lunch and she told me some tips on crashing lecture. HAHA. bad girl ah. then James came over to TP to accompany me! we went to b,acc lecture TOGETHER. haha. this boy from SP came to TP to attend lecture. i wanted to give it a miss but he said i must go :( its was very noisy... so the lecturer said she will not take attendance and if you think you are very good already you may leave.


I DID JUST THAT.
i took my bag and left the lecture room. HAHAHA. anyway, we headed to Jupiter cafe for dinner. YUMMY! thanks for the extra mile made! :)


its weird. but... I LOVE SCHOOL :) i love my classmates and they love me too. HAHA. though i dont like projects, i enjoy the crapping we have!


and lastly, I MISS YAHYOBABES! heard that last week's service was packed! oh boy! REVIVAL is sweet :D im loving it. like what someone said : 'im beginning to prefer church than be in class'. something i totally agree with. church is simply HOME.
a place where you can let down your hair, get away from the busy week and just .. REST. sometimes it feels ironic. fri nights are for prayer meeting, sat evening is 9-5 and sunday service is 10 till 5 yet i nvr get sick of it and im looking forward to meet my friends, so close they are like my family members.

so often people have a misconception that church is some religious act. we just pray, worship, read the bible and be holy. but what they dont know is church is an outlet. a place where you can be real with your friends, cry and be honest about your feelings, let down those mask of smiling. a place where true friends can be found, when they know you are hurting deep down inside though you try to hide it. and thats the greatest comfort. so often when we are hurting deep down inside, we wished someone would just some and offer us a listening ear without us having to ask or say that we are not feeling good.

its such a blessing to know that people are interested in you and wants to know what is going on in your life. its such a blessing to know they are constantly thinking of you, praying for you. its such a blessing to have people invest time and money in you and always believing the best in you. its such a blessing to have them telling you 'its ok' when you fail. its such a blessing to embrace you and say 'i understand how you feel' when you are weak. its such a blessing to have them walk this journey called life with you :P



IM SUCH A BLESSED GIRL

YYB brings heaven to me!
my life has ever since been transformed.

back from genting :) great trip. but i played no game. the outdoor adventure thing i mean. ( dennis will think im mad ) i simply sleep on the journey to and fro, eat when i have to, shop everywhere i go and watch malaysian channel. RELAX like anything. didnt went to the arcade. HAHA. it was just a waste of time lah. but anyway, it was a great trip :)
Got a present from a wonderful girl i knew through the trip. a pretty journal for me to jot down all my thoughts and reflections. Cut my hair in genting. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I GOT MY HAIR CUT BY A GUY!!

Went facial after i came back to singapore. my face is RED! HAHA. squeezed my pimples. ( OUCH! ) and she wants me to keep my fringe up until the next appointment! so cut hair or not also got no difference lah =.0

I won't talk, I won't breathe

I won't move 'til you finally see

That you belong with me

You might think I don't look

But deep inside, in the corner of my mind

I'm attatched to you,

mmmm

I'm weak, it's true

Cause I'm afraid to know the answer

Do you want me too?

Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life

To cross this line

To the only thing that's true

So I will not hide,

it's time to try

Anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

You don't know what you do

Everytime you walk into the room

I'm afraid to move I'm weak,

it's true I'm just scared to know the ending

Do you see me too?

Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life

To cross this line

To the only thing that's true

So I will not hide, it's time to try

Anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true I know when I go

I'll be on my way to you

The way that's true...

I've waited all my life

To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide, it's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

flower from darlings.

personal favourite.

was busy editing many many many pictures. shall upload them one by one :) Anyway... school has been superb. i love my new class, i love my new classmates. hope we will be more and more bonded! school work has been pretty fine and boy... i looovvveee accounts! what a petty i didnt take POA in secondary school...

Its CNN day tomorrow! come cupport 1B13! HAHA. yesterday went to faz house to make honey cereal. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. usually my share is only in eating. So fun lah! anyway i figured that i should not bake... cause its wayyyyy too tempting. FLEE FROM TEMPTATION YOU SEE. BUT! i still wana learn how to bake :) i wana bake for my darling! way of showing love right!

bump into darren this morning. we were on the same bus.. And it was such an unpleasent experience on the bus today lah. this uncle was standing so close to me and he breathe so hard the breath from his nose kept blowing against my hand. itss... DISGUSTING. but anyway, both of us arrived at school at say.. 8.10? Usually at this time i will struggle to board a bus. THANK God. so darren accompanied me to business block and just chat and his friends came along. so i made new friends! pretty crappy people :)

So many people skipped lecture! one of which is RYNNA! world peace without you man! HAHA. apparently this woman overslept... ( duno what she did last night ah... ) HAHA. anyhow, projects are piling up! and im going to go genting on saturday till monday!

oh yeah. the most importantly thing : LESLEY! :)
last night bro was playing with him and mum and i were just watching and laughing lah. that baby is just so adorable. BUT i MUST say that i hate the cleaning after him part. and i ALWAYS try to run away from that job as much as i can. He's just the joy of the family. hopefully bring us closer together. Hmm. maybe for that i should love him more :P

i know this entry is pretty random jumping from here to there. perhaps even information overload. BUT you love me right! so bear with it!

RAYAN is oh-so-sweet :)

and yes. we will be the best of friends. and take many many many pictures and have loads and loads of fun! HAHAHA.

CHEERS TO MY FIRST FRIEND AND BEST FRIEND FROM TP!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

And my little babies are schemers. HAHAHA. Im so gona take many many many pictures of the lovely card and flower. Im SO SO SO SO surprised. its all so natural!

first, i was suppose to meet miracle after i go to my grandma house to pass her her laptop. but i was carrying alot of things for my mum and i was tired so i came home and forgot about the laptop till i met her online. and we actually was suppose to meet at the bus stop. But cause i know if i leave the computer and went to meet her my brother will book the computer so by the time i come home i wont be able to use the computer already... so i msn her if i could meet her tomorrow to pass her the laptop. i thought she said okay, and we will meet at 10 tomorrow....

soon after, someone appeared at my door, and as usual my dog went nuts. HAHA. miracle came to collect her laptop. midcommunication. i thought we would meet tomorrow. but she meant she will come my house take from me. so suddenly...

two familiar faces pop out.......... FAITH AND JEFFREY my grandson. HAHAHA. and they started singing some mother song lah. and i got a flower and a card... OMG. i was so surprised! the flower is like oh-so-pretty and the card made by miracle is always so beautiful. thank you to ALL you sweethearts!

damn. i thought i was forgotten please............... HAHA. but its fleshly to feel this way orkay. wait till u have ur babies and go through how i felt! you guys cheat on my feelings! i was feeling so USED!! HAHAHA. like all my effort in being there gone where liao? but you know i still will have to fight with my thoughts and ' experience how jesus felt'. nuts. im so hugh now. HAHA.

i nearly broke into tears... really. cause bless my heart so much. im SIXTEEN, a mummy with 3 babies and 2 grandsons. HAHA. sounds abit wrong. but oh well. i get a taste of how a mum feels :)

. MIRACLE. FAITH. JEFFREY. RUSSEL .

Im happy because you are happy. oh so sweettt!

CROSS - ROADS.

ITS EITHER WE WALK TOGETHER ON THE SAME ROAD OR WE ARE SEPERATED.

SO WHERE ARE WE NOW?

The above picture of a dog is clinton's puppy! She is oh-so-adorable :)

after church, the bunch of us went over to aunty flo's place for a birthday surprise. and jeanette, miracle and i hide behind the car for like half an hour OR MORE under the sun. sun-tan you see. so bored as we were... we cam-whored :) typical girl shit.

Had to do research for comm skill and oh-so thankful to clarence for helping me print the sheets of information out! wonderful bunch of peeps!

so many things are just happening... coming down on me... new environment, new people to work with, MANY things to sort out, new assignments. Learning so many things from people around me, finding myself, letting go of the past, looking forward to what the future has in store for me :) I wana love my little babies and give my best for them!

AND WE WILL ALL MOVE ON.

truly, each pain draws us closer to God, allows us to understand him more. Im just learning more about my daddy's heart, then i will learn to love Him more. human always look at the things they do not have and forget about all the other wonderful things that are around them. That was me. Im learning to appreciate all the beautiful things and people around me :)

They stay together,
play together,
dream together,
scheme together

i wish i entered the same school as you.

A question suddenly popped into my mind last night while having my dinner.

who would you give up your life for in exchange for theirs?
example if that person was in the hands of a murderer and you are allowed to exchange your life for that other person, who would that be?

i used to think i was very stingy cause i thought i wouldnt do such a thing- to exchange my life for the other party. But almost immediately i had an answer in my heart right after the question pooped out. And i knew that the answer in my heart was really the person i would lay down my life for. someone sooo soo dear to my heart.

So i msg that someone and told that someone that i wont mind giving up my life for that someone's.

this three fellows below are the may babies!

presenting... Xingyong at the left , wan ting, AND.. STINKY!! :) stole this picture from rynna's blog. haha. i know this sweetie wont mind right!! :)

cabbed to school today. cause i changed my clothes three times. HAHA. that happens whenever i feel real sucky on the inside. each time when im just about to step out of the house, like really step out of the house with my shoes on, i will suddenly close the door and return to my room to change my attire. its absurd i know. by the time i left the house and got on the taxi it was like half an hour more to eleven - the time i had to report to tutorial. anyway there was no jam so i reached like ten minutes before time? got chao ah beng to get sandwiches for me. BIG THANKS!

apparently it was orgh beh tutorial and the tutor claims he was envious cause i had breakfast delivered to me. HAHA. i love the tutor cause he has so many stories to share and he has a degree in pschology and he knows those big shots in singapore lah. of course, there were loads of crap in his content. enjoyable :D

studied at cafe. journal-ed and wrote down all my thoughts and feelings and experience on an incident that happened recently that i just cant share with anyone. something thats just between my journal and me. that incident was the one that caused those sucky feelings within me. But i feel so much better after letting my heart out- to a book yeah. so i highly recommend journaling :) i hope im over that incident...
Did accounting homework. Last week i concluded that i dislike accounting. but i hereby declare accounting is my love :D lovely lovely lovely. i may even consider taking POA if i could turn back time. HAHA. but whats over is over. oh well.

im enjoying school as weeks past. we celebrated MAY babies birthday, and its Xinyong's birthday today! woohoo! i bought the cake okay. apparently i was in charge of this month's celebration. of course not to mention the help given by lovely janet and deary RYNNA! you girls rock my world! ( claps ) oh. and of course Gareth who helped carried the cake and treated me to some nice mint chocolate cake! thanks pal.

so we celebrated their birthday in the canteen during the half an hour break ( lecture ended early eh ) rynna came up with the idea to smash cream on XY face and of course i happily agreed. poor boy. i hope he enjoyed the facial :P anyway its almost twleve midnight so i guess i shall just text the bdae boy a birthday msg again.

Im glad people like Rynna, Chao ah beng, tessa, anson, johhan, cereal etc are in the same class as me! i love you all! not to mention Dennis :)

wednesday, thursday and friday = CCA day :) im a busy ass.

you and i had never thought i'd fall for you , NOT.

schooled! had make up lessons for organisational behaviour due to labour day :(

afterwhich went to school library to do the research. crap my way through and handed the assignment up. the chao ah beng chiang kiat talk and talk none stop please. HAHA.

i totally love this statement i made ' i regret saying hi to him on the first day of orientation. '

then went for movies with D! :) watched NIM'S ISLAND. rocks my socks totally! thanks for the treat! afterwhich brought D around yishun and i became the tour guide for the day! WOOHOO.

Study date with fish on monday!

school work is piling up! dangs. i must start to study already and catch up with all the work.

school has been pretty alright. every new day i learn a brand new word from tessa and anson. WOOHOO! my english teachers. based on the stories i heard from others, poly students gradually lose their command of english. and that is the last thing i ever ever ever want to happen to me. i adore english :)

projects are gonna start coming in by the next month? i reckon that will be the period that i will start to be real busy. getting used to the lifestyle here. especially having to work in groups, with people and all. there will definitely be rough patches. I'm more than a conquerer through christ who strengthens me! apparently i have two research on hand now. i totally dislike the idea of looking for information online. never enjoyed doing so. But for the sake of my studies, i better fall in love with all this 'funny' stuff. i better do :)

now that school has started, im looking forward daily to weekends, to attend church and yahyobabes. i just love the fun we have together. though all of us are seperated by distance, our heart will still remian together wouldn't it?

though its a holiday today, we still had to do self learning online via VBUS, and there's gona be a makeup class on saturday. afterwhich will be staying in school to do the research for CSA which has to be handed in by sunday. i know nuts about whats going on...

Life has been pretty much up and down this week. a game of roller coaster? But i'm glad allos parakletos was here all along to pull me out from my situations. I'm thankful for this amazing helper thats alongside me who help me to learn the power of thanksgiving.

as for disciple class today, the greatest takeaway would be to honor my parents. Many times i have cursed and sweared and quarelled with them. but the bible states that there will be dire consequences i will have to bear. consequences that will lead to the downfall of my future family. I want a breakthrough, Lord.

Make the job of the one who gave birth to you a joyful one.