Brokened on the inside.

Damn, i failed my access test. It was suppose to be a piece of cake. but i could not get myself out of bed to study this morning, though i was so sure i would, like every other tests. i woke up with my song ringing in my head.


' I want to run and hide this feeling deep inside
Im losing control of who i am and what I do
The only escape everyday is to lay in bed
And hope that i will never awake'



Two days to my birthday.
Today i decided that it's my Deathday. it's not a bad thing. cause we all need to die to our flesh. and yesterday since i went up for altar call to invite the ark of God back into the tent that i have pitched in my heart, i should have expected this. Well, God really takes you for your word huh. but whether i responded to the altar call or not, the end is still the same- death to the flesh. So why not respond to Him and walk into the breaking on a red carpet than have Him pull you in by the nose and bleed all the way. not that there wont be bleeding with the former. But at least i walk in with grace and poise. HA.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

Check this out! :)

http://lulucherry.com/

Hi blog, I miss you. I'm sorry i only watch you from afar this few months. HAHAH.
Okay, picture updates :)
Follow me on a walk through youth camp! YAYYY!!

Say hello to the BLUE-BOXER!

My team, my team! yay to blueys!

I love them many wors.

Sadly, shaunnyyy couldnt make it :( or you'd see his handsome face in these pictures too. i miss you!

Ok, this is not all. i think quite a number of faces are not in? But anyway, youth camp was kinda small this year. But i like it just that way. It was not like a camp AT ALL. it was like a family gathering of four days. and, i miss it so much. i wish i could relive those moments. Oh, and welcome the new addtions to the family- kinnon and mien mien. and... (heh heh heh)

ok, this was when we were practicing for our drama. seeing this picture made me burst out in laughter. Moses was in an awkward posiition. HAHAHAHA

welcome the new couple...

*drum rolls*
Russel and Issac!

YAY! we give you our blessings.

oh, they were doing a slow dance. so romantic right.. *melts*

the last night was... MADNEESSSSS!

Mossie looked like he got kissed by some ferocious girl. HA. or maybe he got slapped by that lady. hmm. only he knows right.

YAY! my brother and me. HAHAHAHA (damn thick skin)

you know why nt! we both got dimples on our left cheeks. so i told him that we were seperated by birth. so we found each other in camp. HAHAHA. it was so fascinating to see his dimples when he smiles and talk. so interesting lah! well, thats because i dont get to see mine when i talk and smile. HAHAH.

DORA!
glad she made some friends!

This was AFTER youth camp. the gathering of the pa pa jie. HAHA. hip hop 101 yo!

Movie!

i cant help but think that i look best, spastic........................................

yes, hi bud. well, he has somehow MIA from my life since... i cant remember...

okay, so... it's JULY! muahahaha. once again, its the month where many, many, many people stand in front of the family to celebrate their birthday. really, when i say many, its many. HAHAHAH. tomorrow is ber's bdae. yesterday was justin birthday. next monday is woman's bdae. mext wednesday is Grace's birthday. next next wed is gid's bdae and the list goes on. hmm.

our first picture taken together last yr. touched not? hehe

Woman is meeting me on wed in school! muahaha. woman ah woman. headache leh you. yes, we will meet up soon to talk (: i love you many. thanks for rmbing me when you need a listening ear. i feel so blessed to be part of your life :) but well, i guess this bdae wont be a really happy one for you right... hais.

Eh, i am going to the court now. and yes, im skippin school, again. shit. i skipped school ytd, forgetting that if i did, i have to pay a penalty. sigh. today im skippin again- i think. to accompany dad. boooooooooo