NIGHT SAFARI.

The elephant ( flamingo? ), the unglam monkey, the sexy cat, the cuter monkey.

I'M SO SEXY (:

The Lord is my shepherd i shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, beside the quiet still waters.

Come what may, gimme strength to carry on.

I dont want to waver and allow this faith to be shaken. this time i chose to just remain and be still, and know that You are the sovereign Lord. With your help, i can. Even if things just seem tumbling down, I'd have a heart of gratitude. Just like David. He was small in size but he knew God and He who knows God shall mount on wings like eagle and do great and mighty things.

No matter how i feel, my hope is in you. And it's in you alone.

Amen.

Hereby pronounced dead...
Im doing great. Its my phone @*%*&%^#

i hate to send messages with my old samsung phone so if circumstances forces me to, i'd forcefully type a short message just to 'show face' and thus it'd be less expressive (: emails still rocks. serious. went to play counterstrike with the peeps. first time in the seventeen years of my life and it was a rather bad experience. i wanted to vomit and my head was giddy. i know it sounds weird. but i got rather upset after the game. just like how i'd be upset if i watch a trilling or adventurous movie. spare me pretty please. im weird i think. but if its on a positive note, it'd be unique. HAHAHAH. yeah. i cant listen to other songs other than christian songs. it'd get me melancholic and my mood will hit rock bottom if i ever listen to world music. if im in a good mood, id be melancholic. if im sad, i'd sink in even deeper. im really selective to the things i watch and listen to. not that its wrong to watch movies and listen to other songs. its just my preference and i dont enjoy these things. afterall God created different things for us to enjoy to suit each of our taste buds.

Am at russie place now. am SUPPOSE TO be studying (: i tried, but shall continue after that cause im real hungry now. and i had so much fun learning so many new words from the dictionary with the peeps. so much fun playing with the sentences and disturbing them (:
even though i was studyin just now, my heart began to thank god for the friends he bless me with.
i duno if they's ever ever read this, but i think God is so good to me to bless me with such great friends. like rebec, other than the fact she idolises, :P, she is really a great great friend that i had never had one crossed path with me before. she knows my habits, my likes and dislikes, knows that i love mint ( alotalotalot),when i need to be alone, someone who would think of me often, send me home, take note of whether i had my dinner more than i even realise myself cause i used to forget to eat, when im sad, knows that i clash my dressing style, knows that i HATE certain genres of movies and she wouldnt have to ask me whether i wana watch it with her. knows that i love chilli crab and will bring me out to eat. i do not have to open my mouth to answer the questions people ask me, she'd already know my answer. its just so sweet. i think she is the only one that really saw the different stages of transformation, not to mention, the one who got most of my nonsense (: thanks dearie.
Like russel too, knows my eating habits. know that i hate sambal kangkong, know that i like sweets to chocolate. someone who would go the extra mile for me. who is often bullied by me :P but still love me. im just so thankful. to think that the first time i talk to you was when i went drum lesson with you, and the first treat u gave me was at the prata shop. hehehe. as for grandson... someone who is crappy and would entertain me. they all love me alot and will just give in to me. i know i get real difficult sometimes, wanting things my way, having to ALWAYS give in.
and for all that, im just so thankful (:

Its so nice to just sit here and have you guys discussing whats for dinner and going 'oh grace dun like sambal kangkong, grace wants egg with onion, grace loves soup' and i just sit here and listen while they decide what to get while sifting out my dislikies and settle with my likes. its really SO SWEEEETTTTT! you blessed my heart many many many many.

you are all dearly loved by me and you know that i'd go the extra mile just for you guys and it pains me when you guys go through tough times. i duno if time has proved that im there for you, i can only pray that i learn to learn you more and more.

with love,
Bestie, Mother, Grandma (:

And i'd wait till december.
n e u t r a l .

i think english words are pure beauty. i love to learn new words and i marvel at the variety of words that you can chose from just to describe a certaint thing. i wana read the dictionary during my hoildays! (: some stupid ambition since young to improve my english. But besides that reason, of course its the beauty of language that drew me.

you know i really dont wana fall into the same shit again and again and again. so I'd be extremely extremely extremely ( X 10000000000 ) careful.

EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS
in... four days!
and and and Grace kept skipping lectures. MUGGING TIME!

WOMAN! i miss you! got miss me not (:

Anyway, went to changi airport on monday to send uncle james and family off. then the girls and darling jeshua went to the... ZOO! zomg. thats so not the place for me. now i know that shopping is my paradise. not... the zoo. so dont invite me there. its only a waste of time and money for me. But maybe seeing my best friend,

AHMENG makes everything worthwhile. M A Y B E .

Met elson on wednesday to study.
study plan - FAILED. Elson ended up playing with his lappy and Grace with her headband in the toilet. heh. then he went shopping with me. WOOHOO! i finally got my beanie!

feels pretty weird to not have office today. ohwell. am heading for bed for a brand new start tmr! goodnight peeps!

HOME SCHOOLING?

I just came across this show on the tv about this singaporean mum who home schooled her children. THREE children. how much time and effort man. i know i'd wana focus on my kids in the future and not on my career but home-schooling? it'd be so tedious. But it definitely would be fulfilling. in that way, i can build a strong bond with my kids and shield them from the negative influence from the world. i don't want to work and neglect my kids and throwing them to play with the world. that will be so much regret for me when i see them grow up in the future.

therefore i honestly donno what are my plans for now cause though im in a business course, i have not the slightest intention to be a business woman and focus on my career and work many hours through the day so that i can climb up higher, whether in the area of promotion or pay. I think thats too high a price for watching my children turn away and not recognise me.

the number of mothers homeschooling their children have increased through the years and i wouldnt say i'd dismiss the idea of home schooling my kids in future but i definitely wouldnt know how to go about doing it. anyhow, regarding the transfer to NYP, i guess God didnt want me to go there. got a couple of people to pray for me. im kinda lost now where i should go cause i duno if this is the course for me. i duno which course i should go next yr.

whatever it is, i'd get my mind focus on the coming exam first and see how things go about in future.

OH HELLO. i just collected my new spectacles yesterday and every thing is like so clear. i hate to wear spectacles and contact lenses so you can say i walk around blindly. HAHA. some times can cause misunderstanding cause people thinks im rude that i just walk past them without acknowledging them. im so innocent please. right right? (:

because im such a naughty girl the degree of my eyesight has increased again. boohoo.
so i THINK i will be wearing my spectacles or contact lens whenever im out. i dun want my degree to soot up like mad y'know.

so anyway. ever since i wore my new spectacles, i cannot believe i can see every thing so clearly it felt like magic. its not like i dun have a pair of spectacle before that. its just that it arent my actual degree cause i tld the person to decrease the degree. HA. so yeah. i think my new spectacles is plain magic (:

today i only went to school for 20 minutes. LIKE WHAT! there goes my us fare lah! not cheap siah! like every two days top up ten bucks! wth man!! mummy i wana transfer to NYP. like SERIOUS. thats if they allow me to continue with year two * prays hard *
women commented that im WEIRD. reason : i get emo sometimes and i go crazy the next moment. HAHAHA. yeah. that i totally agree. but she said she loves me for who i am! hehe. and i saw WANG HUO TOU at the bus interchange! am so happyyyy. oh so happy (:

went with baby to changi airport and we made new friends. malaysian business man and they are rather good looking k! woohoo! i got new cyber penpal loh!

but nothing beats this piece of news

IM FLYING TO HONKIE IN SEPTEMBER!

whats more, with miracle!

woohoo~ and whats best. they are having summer sales. like CRAZY sales up to 70%! wooooohhhoooo!! im going save like siao this month so i can spend there like mad! HA!

Did you know that the legal age to have sex is 16?!
like WHAT!!! how can man. i only know this through a presentation in class today.

anyway Donk, checkout the videos. the second one is rather interesting. its the experiment with one's words. and check out that link there. scientifically proven. cool man.




maybe you guys wana experience this out. and share with me the results. HA!

• in conclusion, words are really powerful and you don't know how drastic the effect could ever be. therefore we should all make the word a better place by lavishing more kinder and loving words on the people around us.
  

this video would back up the link below.
http://www.2knowmyself.com/The_power_of_words/Dr_emoto_experiment_water_crystals_photographs

What Is the Difference?
The first time I saw these pictures, I couldn’t guess that they were pictures of the water that we drink everyday. These four pictures represent the molecular structure of four samples of water after subjecting them to some external influences. Dr Emoto, a brilliant scientist, carried out some tests on the samples and the result was the difference in molecular structure that you can see in the pictures. What exactly did Dr Emote do to the water? Well, he basically just spoke a few words and the water changed its structure based on these words.

Ready for the Shock?
Ok, the first sample is just a normal sample of water.The second picture is the sample after some words of prayer were spoken loudly beside the water!!The third picture is the structure of the sample after repeating the phrase “you make me sick”.The picture at the bottom is the molecular structure of water after some heavy metal was played!!
Since these words and phrases were spoken in Japanese, it seems that the energy of the person who speaks is what changes the structure of water, and not the words themselves since water doesn't differentiate between languages.

The Conclusion
Bad words negatively affect the structure of water while good words and prayer help in making the water crystals take beautiful shapes. So, you might ask, what does this have to do with me? What does the way I speak next to water have to do with my relationship with other people?
Well, if you first take into consideration the fact that:
Around 70% of your body is formed of water,
you should be able to reach the right conclusion...

I'M AMAZED. are you?
Water that is exposed to music shows beautiful crystals. we create reality by the way we think and speak. if you think you are stupid, claims you are stupid, then you BECOME stupid.

oh. GRACE IS SMART. so smart so smart. therefore i BECOME smart! HA!

Happy Birthday nattie! (:



Happy birthday to mummy on the 080808.



Mozzie and grace (:



dearie




pretty ladies. heh

i think i almost made my decision.

Anyway, exams are round the corner so i think im gona go MIA for a week or so and POOF! i will be back when im back. ha. and im so gona make full use of my holidays to XxXxXxXx. i cant wait for holidays!

till then peeps!

loves,

winnie the grace

Aloha (: this is my lao pa, aku's papa, Mr lim.

This is his daughter, Miss Lin aka WINNIE THE GRACE. heh.

Met daddy for lunch today and like always, the time spend was just splendid. It always brings a healing to me that my dad sits with me and teach me about life and share with me his thoughts.


As we were waiting for the food, dad was telling me that his friends all commented that when we walk together, it wont dawn on them that im his daughter and he is my dad. so i cheekily told my dad, ' dont look like my dad then look like my boyfriend ah?' HAHA. and he said, RUBBISH. so funny.

Do you know that your character is a combination of your dad and mum? knowing that, i went to ask my dad to describe himself to me. and i take after him on these points.

Like my dad, im a deep thinker and after seeing certain things happen, both of us will start to think about that situation and wonder why it happen and we will think of ways to solve it. in this way, if that event happens to us, we would already have a solution to it. like my dad, family comes before accomplishment. like my dad, money arent everything. we have a belief system that money can be earned thus we dont hold on to it tightly.

BUT like him, im a spendthrift who dont think twice before spending. Its to my advantage cause whenever im out with him and i see something i like, i almost never get rejected. HA. he nvr hesitate to purchase something for me regardless the price. but its to my disadvantage also cause i dont save, like my dad. Daddy has many good friends around him. And he has a very soft heart. ( im not sure if i take after him on that point man ) but he is someone who loves to learn new things. i do take after him in that point but its to my disadvantage cause i almost never focus in whatever i do. and which brings me to the next point.

I have always been a musically inclined person. i love to expose myself to new instruments. for example, the piano, the drums and guitar. I learn how to play the guitar when i was primary three and have been letting that skill rot. because i dont focus, my musical skills are heading nowhere, and perhaps my skills are undergoing degression. BOOHOO. so focusing is very important. im still trying to make a decision.

anyway, back to the topic, you know ever since young, usually kids would envision to be like their parents. ( thats if they have a healthy relationship with their parents)
today was the first time it dawn upon me or should i say, i look upon my daddy as my hero. honestly i duno why. maybe i would after i crystallise my thoughts.

In the seventeen years of my life, i would say that Dad and I has a love-hate relationship. honesty, in this crooked and depraved generation, there are only a few exception that truly loves and adores their parents or what not. there will definitely be a season when you all just don't see eye to eye. but this love-hate relationship with aku's father is not merely a 'see-no-eye-to-eye' thing. i used to not respect daddy and blame him for the breaking up of my family. i never truly loved him and enjoyed a healthy relationship with him. i nvr knew my dad loves me so much. never knew that i mattered so much to him. i almost lose the blessing of just enjoing eating with daddy.

After entering disciple class, aka church, i learn to forgive daddy and love him. and i realised that alot of times, things that i perceived arent usually the truth. i learn to talk and ever since i learn to be more vocal, i learn to ask my dad if he loves me. cause as a matter of fact, kids from my background often perceive that their parents break up cause they are not good children. though i nvr truly understood that cause in my mind i knew daddy loves me. only until i asked him if he loved me and i hear his reply then it brought me healing that hey, my daddy truly still loves methen the love sank into my heart, no longer was it a ' i think daddy loves me'. Its' HEY, MY DAD LOVES ME OKAY!'

actually all children wil have a part of them that needs their father to build up, especially girls. if when they are young they do not have affirmation from their father, they would grow up only to have many different boyfriends wanting their love and affirmation to make up for the love and affirmation that their father should have rightly lavish unselfishly upon them. Fathers play a huge role in our lives.

Different people have different love languages. As our parents, the 'older generation' are less vocal, my dad hardly tells me that he loves me and affirm me that im pretty ( ha ) so i would force it out of him and ask him when the thoughts enters my mind. i would say, ' daddy, do you love me?', ' daddy am i pretty? ' , 'daddy am i smart'? i would get him to hug me before we part, get him to say he loves me and hold his hands. honestly if i havent been to disciple class, i wouldnt enjoy my dad as i do now. Dad is not like a father, someone older to me. he is like my friend whom i can just share my thoughts with. every single thought and have him share his with me and i would hear his views and we would spur each other on.

sometimes i think about marriage and i talk to my dad about it. he encouraged me alot. a few months ago, i was worried that he wont walk me down the aisle. sounds stupid i know. but yeah, it was my worry. today, after coming back from a wedding ytd, these thoughts came again and i asked dad if he will walk me down the aisle. he said 'i thought about it. of course im gona walk you down the aisle'. He said that he will talk to my BF the rules and all. example ' CANNOT BULLY MY DARLING DAUGHTER'. HAHA. woohoo! i got my daddy to back me up okay. hehe.

I was fearful that i wont do well in my studies cause exams are round the corner so i ask my dad if i was smart and he said of course. HEHE. that kinda lightens my load. HMM. actually i should have asked him would he still love me if i dont do well. BOO. im gona ask him the next time we communicate.

oh. and daddy and i bought a new specs (: after i came out from the room after checking the degree of my eyesight, daddy was nowhere to be found. and i asked the lady in charge 'where's my daddy' and it felt really good to be able to ask that question. if felt like it was the first time i asked that question in my seventeen years (:

am a happy darling.



Lastly, Grandson this is for you! (: delevoping good habits. writing down ur bad points alone wont help. wanting to change wont help either. KNOWING how to change is the key and this video has benefitted me. hope it benefits you as well! way to go to us becoming a better person!

OUR HABITS TODAY DETERMINE OUR FUTURE!

This was my initial planned dressing. tsk.

The one i bought in school which i comtemplated for a long long long time. But just before i was to leave the house, mum serene called me and said that we can wear our JB costume throughout cause afterall we will hardly have a chance to wear it so i changed into a red top.

( apparently the class lied and said that all must wear red or else seal points all will be GONE. though i was thinking that was quite ridiculous and wanted to try my luck out and just bring a red scarf since im wearing that dress. But since im gona wear the JB costume throughout i might as well just wear red )

after class ended was suppose to meet mozzie to go for the wedding but he was L A T E. as expected. HAHA. but not entirely him to blame cause i changed the timing and venue last minute. oh well.

The wedding was superb superb please. everyone was dressed prettily and handsomely. heh. except me cause i didnt dress up. Mozzie and I were to sing duet as the special item for mr and mrs jordan (: we were suppose to present romeo and juliet and da ai zhen jiu le wo. Just before worship when i was playing the kepboard mum came to my side and said that mozzie will hold my hand when we sing romeo and juliet. i was like W H A T ?! like shocked lah. but after that we practice a few times and we were on the stage. HA!
Just before we were up on the stage i was like.. 'mozzie, your mother here right?' he said yeah. then i said ' my mother also here leh. i think she'd be shock. he said ' i think so too' LAUGH OUT LOUD.
Could have been alot better if mozzie sang louder and if we had been more natural and less shy. He forgot to hold my hand and we didnt really dare look at each other in the eye. so damn funny. i had to stretch out my hands infront of his face for him to hold.
but well, we'd only get better (: like i said, and have always been saying, MOZZIE IS MY BEST SINGING PARTNER UP TO DATE. and i bet there will still be many chances that i'll stand on the stage with him to sing. well, thats unless THE ONE comes and he can sing lah. or HIS ONE comes and she can sing then it'd be a whole different story. But im still glad i can sing with him again after XYZ years. Partner i missed you you know!










There has never been a wedding like this before. with tambourines to welcome the couple and yeah, the duet. HA. i had sooo much fun. this is so informal and its like a family gathering. i enjoyed myself to the max (: will upload the rest of the mannyyy pictures when i get it.


DO YOU KNOW?
No words in the English language rhymnes with the words month, orange, sliver and purple?
Go try it out with you don't believe me. if you can think of any words that rhymes with these words, tag me and prove to me that im not smart!

AND DO YOU KNOW DO YOU KNOW that grace LOVES writing emails? (: its my hobby. some secret hobby that i thought was shit till i know someone else who does and PA BOOM! no more secret! i always wanted a penpal. one from overseas hopefully. so yeah. now that you know gracey loves RECEIVING EMAILS too, hurry up and send me a mail and start to be my cyber penpal and share with me how your life is etc etc! HAHAHA.
MY EMAIL IS grace_91@hotmail..com whoever you are (:
pretty crap i know. but serious. i.d be more than glad to receive an email when i check my inbox everyday. makes me haaapppyyy!


LOVES,
winnie the grace

LOVING LIFE AND LOVING YOURSELF .




Do you know that you have a relationship with yourself?

• many times we compare ourselves with other people whom we think are okay. we not only compare but try ot be like them. truth is many are looking at you wishing that they can be like who you are.
• all of us have strengths and weaknesses and the biggest mistake is to focus on our weaknesses.
• many people are not satisfied with what they can do. they are always trying to do something they are not good at.
• we should concentrate on what we are naturally good and gifted and develop it and not look at our weaknesses and think we dun have that gift and try real hard to develop the gift that God didnt gave us.
• it doesnt mean that if we dont like the same thing as others do, there is something wrong with us.
• if we dun have a good relationship with ourselves, we cant have a good relationships with others.
• we are not created to have negative emotions about ourselves.
• we must keep our tongue from evil and shun evil, do what is right. we should search for peace and dont merely desire peace of realationship with God, with yourself and with the fellowman.
• we need to come to terms of peace with ourselves, for every mistake we make we need to askgod forgiveness and receive the forgiveness.
• thinking badly about ourself seems humble and religious.

Got Xingyong to give me a morning call this morning but upon receiving it i didnt pick it up i just put it back under my pillow and PHUFF! i slam my head against the pillow and im off to dreamland, again. went to the library to meet the peeps and it was actually unnecessary. HA! Kind amanda accompanied me to eat lunch (: SHE THOUGHT I HAD A MAID AND THAT I STAY IN A SEMI-D. oh cool =.- after eating, i suggested that we go to our tutorial class outside to slack. on the way there i was telling her that im gona go TM to look for clothes to wear tomorrow.

as we were walking we chanced upon the cart and i went to take a look and saw a pretty dress (: woohooo. i was comtemplating if i should get it the whole time and finally, i did! (: met baby for dinner and we had CRABS! oh cool. then she came m home and dressed for her. heh. a different style. COOL. im so excited for the wedding tmr! (:

SETS MY HEART FREE.

Am a happy girl (: as you can see, i changed my blog skin. havent been updating regularly cause there is so much happenings in life and i had no time and its different when you blog it out. But anyway, im just os glad that major projects are over and i feel so much lighter and relaxed and can start studying for the end semester tests. But somehow time is just running out. like there is so much to study, so little time. hmm.... especially when CSA test is next saturday. and to emphasize on my point of not having enough time, im actually rushing through the whole syllabus cause i didnt attend any of the lecture. AND i didnt really do well for my other projects. cause i always found computer stuff repulsive. i better get over it or i'll be dead.

but in any case, im getting used to the fact that i have to do projects in poly. i really hated it to the core since secondary school life but i reckon i better get my mindset shifting cause i'd have to live with the fact of having projects for the next three years or so, and when i get to uni another XYZ years. so GRACE , you know what to do.

YEAH. so the wedding will be this friday. will be meeting moses at Tampines mall straight after comm skill then off we wil head to the wedding! woohoo! GOOD FOOD (: i think i'd be wearing the dress to school.

Anyway, life's been great. great cause i could pour out my heart to someone. it just sets me free. i don't feel as tired, as burdened. Thats why they said it's liberating to be transparent. ohhhh... Im feeling set free to find myself, the real me. I used to ( perhaps still am ) try to pretend and be someone else. I'd used to want to be anyone else and everyone else but me. i lost myself in the midst of imitating. but HEY, i wana find myself back (: and am starting on that journey. i feel set free to go ahead with the things i like, and not follow the crowd. its just a journey to behold. i used to fear how people look at me. how they would think of me. but i guess i really have to turn or God will break that part of me. and if friends are true friends, they'd still love me - for who i am right (: seriously if you think im not being me, THATS PERFECTLY NORMAL cause im truly finding who i am. HAHAHA. BYE

THE HEAVENS DECLARE THE GREATNESS OF GOD




we may doubt the God we cannot see. But how do we still doubt when the creation - heavens- are the evidence of his presence?

sing singapore (X4)
it was tough when our forefathers step on this land
different tribe different tongue and different land
with courage they gathered to fight for a better life
in unity a nation is birthed

when we thought all was well and going fine
came world war two, disrupted our lives,
with loyalty we stood on to our homes and fellow man
thus we emerged victorious

Bloom we have room
to climb to higher heights
theres no end for this land
we'll create historywith our hopes and dreams
together singapore.