Chinese new year day 2! (: I think this year chinese new year is a boring one. Don't really feel as if it is CNY. I wonder by the time our generation grows up, we'd still be visiting families and all to bai nian. Im like in school now waiting for time to pass to meet up with my project mates to do up the powerpoint for presentation later. wahaha. im such a slacker. Woke up yesterday morning to do the newspaper article that i was suppose to hand up that evening. When I was eating with Ruban and Stephan( is that how you spell it, chindian :P ?) they were like shocked i do such a thing. HAHA. Yeah, im a slacker yo.

Anyway, was CNY, went over to momsere's place in the afternoon to bai nian. Its was really nice cause there's this family feeling and you could feel the warm and love that we have for each other. I wished I could just stay there the whole day but got to go Dad's side to bai nian. so cab to Aloy's place at amk. went to his place and (unlucky or not) his friends were there.

Then we headed to grandpa's place. while in the lift i told him that i wana cam-whore with him and he was like reluctant... RARH. arrived at grandpa's place then Aloy and me were like both looking at each other dunno what to say. WAHAHA. Poor him went to bainian alone last year. So we stayed there for about twenty minutes then went to dad's place. YAY! He gave me the biggest red pcket. hah. of course right. own daughter leh (: We took the bus together to big aunt's to eat dinner. I used my Dad's authority to make aloy take poictures with me (:

AHH. seriously. I only have our baby pictures together. need more of the grown up ones. HAHAHA.

Aloy, go to facebook and take the pics leh.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!






We are all unique yo. Something that I need to get into my thick skull and learn to stop comparing. It kills. There is always someone out there better than you, prettier than you, smarter than you.
People always say, why be second best by pretending to be someone else when you can be best at being yourself. Easier said than done. But true, no one can be me or try hard enough to be like me.




This girl... She is my aunt. And when she was still a toddler, I had her sat on my lap and the next thing i knew, she urined on me. HAHAHA. What an experience huh.




Met up with Miracle and we both had our cameras. HAHA. SNAP SNAP SNAP! Met her last year during CNY and we met again this year! maybe this should be our tradition * Winks *

Love this.

I love this the most.. I love the words. while editing this picture, i was reminded of how she will raise her head to look me in the eye and say, 'wa, you grew taller'. And this continued for awhile until it became a fact that im taller. HAHAA. Oh, i love memories, walking down memory lane with you. I think I'd always laugh when I see the words... Brings back memory doesnt it? after editing this picture, i send it to Miracle and she was like ' I thought its gna be sweet like the rest'. HAHA. i think this is quite sweet what!! ( see, thats how i always poke fun of her. I repent! )

RUBAN! Im so sorry. Cant meet you tmr. Got to go my aunt's place for dinner. who ask u stay so far!! ANDANDAND. i nvr make use of you okay! HAHA. Thurs my treat! hopefully can meet up lah. cause friday got presentation then need to practice lah... FAIR ALSO RIGHT! you ps-ed me TWO times cause of projects. haha. Im so petty. yeah, I am. forgive but cannot forget what! haha. kidding (: Friendship is give and take right! you nvr know, next time u may need my help... emm.. to woo a girl. a CHINESE girl. heh heh.

DARYL! you didnt get back to me! ASS. HAHAH.

But yay! I had fun with baby today. Its been so long since with met right right right? (:

Will be visiting Dad and relatives with aloy tmr. I miss you Stinky! Ytd after service, I was playing with Jeshua and he had this book with cats and a rat and i told Jeshua that the rat was you. HAHA. i miss you lah and no, i wont share my ang pow money with you! HAHA.

Get well soon idiot! Why fall sick during chinese new year!!

CIAOS!

Psalm 73

1 Surely God is good to Israel, to those who are pure in heart.
2 But as for me, my feet had almost slipped; I had nearly lost my foothold.
3 For I envied the arrogant, when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.
4 They have no struggles; their bodies are healthy and strong.
5 They are free from the burdens common to man; they are not plagued by human ills.
6 Therefore pride is their necklace; they clothe themselves with violence.
7 From their callous hearts comes iniquity; the evil conceits of their minds know no limits.
8 They scoff, and speak with malice; in their arrogance they threaten oppression.
9 Their mouths lay claim to heaven, and their tongues take possession of the earth.
10 Therefore their people turn to them and drink up waters in abundance.
11 They say, "How can God know? Does the Most High have knowledge?"
12 This is what the wicked are like—always carefree, they increase in wealth.
13 Surely in vain have I kept my heart pure; in vain have I washed my hands in innocence.
14 All day long I have been plagued;I have been punished every morning.
15 If I had said, "I will speak thus," I would have betrayed your children.
16 When I tried to understand all this, it was oppressive to me
17 till I entered the sanctuary of God; then I understood their final destiny.
18 Surely you place them on slippery ground;you cast them down to ruin.
19 How suddenly are they destroyed, completely swept away by terrors!
20 As a dream when one awakes, so when you arise, O Lord, you will despise them as fantasies.
21 When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered,
22 I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you.
23 Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
27 Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
28 But as for me, it is good to be near God.I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.

Dear all, I felt so much better after talking to Uncle James about my recent struggle, a common struggle that i guess many will go through. Right, Besties? (:

Although i often struggle with having one foot in the world and one foot in the kingdom, i never really 'got out of it'. Its a constant struggle that visits me every now and then and cause me to have mood swings. When i don't have these struggles, I'd be so in love with God, at my height. Then one fine day these thoughts start to invade my mind and i began to doubt, AGAIN. I doubt my salvation, doubt God, doubt my choice. 'What was i doing?' I'd ask myself. I'd question my faith, my trust in God. my salvation. 'Why aren't I out there? With the populars, the 'in' people'. Sometimes I'd chuck the issue aside and move on in life. But seriously, you wont move far before these whole 'whats the meaning of life' begin to haunt you again. Slowly, the heart starts to wander and look at all the fun that people are having. Well, sometimes i do succeed in psycho-ing myself that life is good with God, that I'm on the right side of life.

But anyway, i spoke to uncle James, my spiritual Dad from vancouver ( YAY!) and he showed me psalms 73 ( refer to above) I felt so good when i just started to explore the psalm. It felt as if all my feelings were sumed up in this psalm. The feeling of injustice that Im missing out in life. Of the happiness that people are having while clubbing and smoking etc. They seemed like the happiest, no sorrow. Just live life 'my way'. No commandments to abide to, no 'no this, no that' to restrict what they wana/can do. They seem to have no burden. They have all the friends around them. They have anything they want, from wealth to friends to relationships. What the crap, i would think.

I failed to see how blessed I am. How my life is transformed after entering class. How I had the privellege to 'stand on my mentor's shoulders' and see things beyond my age. I see how many people made the wrong mistakes in life and had to live the consequences. How i was so blessed to avold those pitfalls, to learn from the mistakes of others and not have to bang my head against the wall and learnt from the hurts and pains. I was spared. Spared from guilt, from sin, from shame. I was rescued to a life of purity, a life that leads to only one destiny- success.

While others are out there struggling with life, I have no problems knowing what my life will be, who I am, who i gna be. I know for sure that i'd be sucessful, my children will be successful. I know that im blessed. I have people around me who believed in me. I have a community who watches over me and pray me into success. who believes in me. how many people have such privellege? i have many counsellors around me to guide me so that i will not follow their mistakes. DAMN. What else can i say but... 'wo shen zai fu zong bu zhi fu'.

Went to camwhore with Wanting and Qirong ytd (: though it was only for a few minutes but managed to have some fun yay! Had b.acc2 test on tuesday night, 7.30pm. Studied all the way from 3.30pm till 7.30pm. BIG HURRAY to wanting for helping me! test was pretty easy. finish it within half an hour and went home! Had another test today. So woke up at 5 plus to study.

Thought I was gona fall ill again cause had headache again this morning. AHH! Woman, I forgot to call toptable. Will do so asap okay!

So had tests and projects to rush. Stupid Ruban didnt inform me before hand that he is not meeting me today :( so i was so bored! Wasted my 6hrs doing nothing and watching dvd. RARH! Luckily ChingKiat accompanied me to eat magee mee! He is my maggie mee partner! oh dangs. One more month to holidays yo! RP having their holidays next wk! not fair! And GB gona start soon. But im gona be missing it for the first series. AND AND AND lovey is coming back this friday! I MISS YOU!! Ah crap. This post is so messy.

Bye.

IM ALIVE!

Heyo peeps (: Im so not in the mood to blog cause

(1) I think i live a mundane life.
(2) Im lazy to think back on what happened through the day.
(3) I think I'm such a bore you will fall aslp while reading my blog.

So checkout some outdated pictures taken by Darling bec's camera. (what can we ever do without you)

Presenting singing partner and me! Oh I love this picture the most out of the others we ever took! YAY! Girls rock the world upside down, seriously.



I was just typing about Becky when suddenly -perfectingsmiles- appeared before me (: HAHA. I was telling her that i was blogging about her. don't wry, it will surly be good. I love you too much, sweets. And and and, I'm so nice I wont blog bad about you. I miss you! And i know you miss me too! So lets go out soooonnn.... after my exams *winks* then there will be GB4 and i will be seeing you everyday, again. Then I will stay at your place, AGAIN! YAY!




Yo sexy junior (: YAY! He is comin TP! *please let him get in* prays hard. prays damn damn damn hard.



Oh the MIGHTY THREE (: erm. and mozzie's sexy sleeve.




Joseph! and this is about him advertising for his expensive phone. HAHA. Go rob him, yo.





Now Im gona start blogging. Like blogging about my mundane life. hehe. Don't you dare fall aslp asses. So yesterday was thursday. Anyone don't know that? Thursday is my day with Ruban! OMG! its been ages since i met him, and yes, he looked older. HAHA. Went to subway to eat during my four hours break. While waiting for him, i accompanied Johann for lunch and we went library to print some shit (:

Had sociology tutorial. went into the classroom and i asked Mr terrence how many more tutorials left and he said about five more ( I think its less than that though) and i said HUH, I wish i can take sociology for the whole of three years and he thinks Im bullshitting. HAHA. I seriously meant it. sociology is the best damn thing that happened to me in poly.

Met ruban again after class cause apparently he was stuck in his class waiting for his teacher to check his script so he was bored. But anyway, we went to have dinner at CS together and had a lot of crapping. YAY! He suddenly asked me. 'Do you wear dress one ah?' @#$%^&*^%$#
What siah. I do wear dress ok. ONCE IN AWHILE. Cause very *dangerous*. The wind blow ah, gone case already. HAHA. especially in TP, the wind is so damn strong. So to prove that i DO wear dress, i blogged photos in!!

Then we went to the interchange and this funny guy infront of me keep turning back to look at me, whom i find familiar too and next thing i know, the person beside him was FUSEN! AHH! i missed him man! They wana come TP too~ YAY! Im so happy cause i have got many friends who can go home with me alrd!!

Let mt list down some awesone people who MAY be coming TP (:
Hong gwhee, Kelvin, Amethyse, Fusen, Winson.

03-01-09

He's got a twin!

Meet the international songwriter.



Just like everyone else, I'm blogging cause its 2009 already! seriously time just pass so damn fast. It's like i havent had enough of sweet 17? But nonetheless, sweet 17 has been like a roller coaster ride. There were ups and downs, tears and laughter, breaking and healing of relationships. Its the year that mum and I experienced sweetness and joy in our relationship. But it took so much for that to happen. It took running away from home for close to a week, surrendering mum to God, surrending her life to Him, even at a risk of not having her around anymore. Today, mum and I can talk our hearts out to each other and enjoy intimacy in our relationship. I just told mum ytd that I'm taking business course now not because i want to, but because the people around me didnt gave me a choice. I felt that I didnt chose to be in this course. I wanted to pursue music and do what i like to do. But somehow, no matter how hard i try to communicate this to mum in the past, it never seems to get through. But ytd, she listened to me and i told her that im in business cause she wants me to. And she promise to let me go do what i want to do after poly. YAY! (: but i'd still do well in poly though.

Anyway as i was saying, 2008... the year that I have a new god father who loves me, who rebukes me, who supervises my quiet time. hehe. and he lives in Vancouver. He has been an encourager, and disciplines us when needed. ITs also the year Judah came to christ and joined CMC. He has been such a joy (: Teddy bear!\

Also, three musk were formed! oh! Faith got the three of us necklaces and on each was carved one of three words, Best Friends Forever. I also reconciled with Daniela in 08 (: Thank God for Hong ghwee too, who joined us in yyb!

For countdown, the church had a watch night svc that starts at 9.30pm which will last till midnight, where the fireworks show will begin- right before our very eyes, at the 30th floor. I kinda missed the show cause while the show was going, the lights were off, and while everyone was crowding by the windows, i had one purpose in mind. To find bestie out of the many others. But i failed. She was no where to be seen. Wanted to surprise her with the present while the fireworks were showing but since i cant find her, i placed the present back to my bag and return to enjoy the show. just when i was about to do so, the show ended =.- and i saw bestie. so ran back to my bag to get it and yay! surprised her~

The youths tonned at HSC that very night. was the first time i didnt sleep the entire night man!

Im looking forward to movies with Mr Heng tomorrow! And And, i just got a tub of rum and raisin ice cream! in this way, i dun have to pay $5 bucks every day just for one scoop of ice cream (: