HELLO! :D amazing day. can only blog on this special day once every four yrs so of course im gona take up the opportunity. HAHA. there's no class today. so woke up at about 9am and did housework! perspired! i thought i will only like take ten minutes to do it, but after i did housework it was like 9.45am? pretty satisfied baby. oh well. im soo excited for my new camera :D it is said that the camera must be charged for 8 hrs first. man. where do i get the patience to wait EIGHT LONG HOURS??!! oh well. i think in an hours time i will start snapping pictures. haha. gna go HSC to jamjamjam! oh. and of course to memorise verses. anyway, joshua is gona come too! HEHHEH. spell me F-U-N !! there is going to be cooperate prayer tonight! PRAY PRAY PRAY for the nations!

ohohoh. i forget to blog about this. but i must!
met up with my darling daddy on wednesday for dinner. he bought me two bgas from china. HA! not those that i will buy if i see it on the street. but what makes it special is becus dad bought it for me with LOVE! <3 HEH. we joked and laughed and its such an enjoyable moment. i just loveee dad. then he bought me shoes and a pants! haha. to compensate me cause he duno my shoe size so cannot buy from china. oh well. its to my gain. HAHA. one of the rare moments i hear dad says that he miss me :D haha. you know lah. chinese people ( esp old people) care alot bout face. but he became more expressive the day i became more expressive with him. i th ank him for loving me and just giving me money to spend (HAHA) he said. of course lah. dont love you love who. HAHA. melts my heart totally. but all good things have to end. so we seperated.

this is so much better :D simple. original ( oh well. its not too original afterall ) but now i dun have to rack my brain that bad of what skin to use. HEH! dad gave me money to buy camera! gona date shuhui out in the morning to shop for it. im so excited!! WOOTS! tomorrow is the 29th. once every four year. what a meaningful date. BUT.....

it's getting more and more uncertain. what should i do?

had drum lessons today. SO FUN! I LOVE JOSHUA ! hahah. btw he is my drum teacher. HOHOHO. laugh and crap alot. drumsy drumsy :D

goodbye, sweetheart, for real.

thursday

met up with R and J to go SP to appeal for courses in SP. was suppose to meet up with elson too. but he last minute cant make it. oh well. the dumb thing is this lah. we went all the way to SP just to use their internet connection. like &%*$^*$&. i thought there will be some nice people who will offer some good advice etc. but NO. they juts directed us to the laptops. like wth... anyway, as i was about to appeal, the JAE 2008 book thing on the poly courses was just by my side. so i decided to just take alook and see what my course is about.
and i realised i misunderstood my course. HAHA. i thought my course was only about logistic and operation whatever shit.
who knew it was actually a CHOICE between that or diploma in marketing or business. PHEW. i was like grinning from ear to ear please.... SO I DIDNT APPEAL AT THE END OF THE DAY. im like on top of the world lah. and so im glad with the way things are :D

saturday

went with shuhui to KOVAN. oh my. i nvr remembered i ever went there in my life before. HAHA. we had CRABS! yummy yummy. according to shuhui, the prices are real cheap. and and the crab is not small you know. hahaha. couldnt find what we wanted to. so went to the shopping centre to walk walk :D bought many things. HEH HEH. so fun!

i got into tamasek poly! ( business in logistics and operation )

hmm... apparently jason is going to the same course and same school! so i guess it arent that bad afterall. i mean though i dun really know him. (he's like DAMN DAO YOU KNOW) but its still pretty comforting at least i know someone. phew.

but afterall TP is not the ideal school that i want to go. it never crossed my mind! i mean. its dumb lah. never croos my mind i still go and put in as one of my choices. butbutbut. got to occupy space mah. i have forgotten its my number what choice already. but it must have been the later few i reckon.

anyway im gona go try to appeal today at SP. going all the way down to appeal cause the course thats in my heart is music and audio and cant apply online as the COP too low. in other words, my grades arent good enough. HAHA. but you know. dont give up till you have fought for it right. thats what uncle hwa ching told me. David was a fighter. he fought with God until the very last minute.

i mean. afterall the visions are all pretty positive though i really duno how God is gna open the way. i mean. theres only 40 intake per year. one of the hottest course and many will be fighting for. how would a unknown girl whose grades are like 15 points, (far far far away from the expectation) be able to enter. BUT if i really do, HAH. many will pretty wana skin me alive cause it will burst their mind how i even made it. oh well. GOD's grace be with me!!

GOD! im doing my part to do all that i can. open the way for me!! :D amen.

but say if i really don't make it, im stuck with TP and only TP loh. its okay. i only want to know that im stil in the will of God... anyway i really duno how to get to TP. heard must take two buses. need to go back the concession then can save money. HAHA. travelling time : unknown
but i have resolved to read the bible while travelling. that is if im alone lahh.... the one and only thing i take comfort in about TP is this : TP is not a big school so no need to walk alot, unlike SP. HAHA

WEE! a brand new journey in life. new friends, entering into adulthood. study hard and do well!! anyway, in the businees course in tp, elective courses are offered and im plainning to take banking and finance. haha. the 'cheat method' since i cant get into banking and finance courses. ah. but its still to early to say. i heard that the job offers are like working with tanks and selling them from door to door. like omg. i duno lah. thats not what i want to do!

i thought it was a lie till today.

im sorry. i dun want to hurt you.
you are the last person i ever want to hurt.

if time can be replayed, i promise i wont even talk to you.

many atimes man just look to that one thing that they do not have and forsake the whole garden of eden

Had chilli crab and cheese crab! yummy! then had sushi and soup.

oh boy. im so happy :D im satisfied

i wana be serious with drums!

always give things up haf way. but you know what. im gna conquer this weakness and i wana put in my best for drums!

learned new skills for keyboard today from jie minghui.

planning to borrow guitar from darling shuhui to practice my guitar skills. haha. my skills are like going downhill. oh well.

results are going to be out tomorrow at 8am. im so excited! whatever it is, music and audio or banking. whatever. life still goes on.

your sudden popping into my life has totally turned it upside down.

trying hard to untie the knots.

undo the mistakes.
i wana say goodbye. i wana be free from you

blow wind blow.

blow you far far away from me :X

bad day turned good.

took many pretty pictures with miracle :D

nicenicenice.

had fondue then went to walk around esplanade and city hall. real long walk. but didnt felt tired. haha. once again, it was a no agenda based date. baby is a great photographer.

anyway, russell and miracle explored their voices today. WELL DONE! haha.

im still waiting for your reply.

what do you mean by all this you freako.

put your life in danger and said byebye.

its so ridiculous i can't believe.

yet i chose to accept it's the truth.

i'd rather you tell me its all along a lie and get me angry.

as long as you remain fine.

breaking apart. But i just have to let go.

please don't ever enter my life again.

o lord, give me only want you desire that is best for me. i ask for nothing more - even if it is good. take it away so i dun have to suffer what i do not need to.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

:D a day spend between couples and a day for friends :D

spend this special day with faith. think it should be the first time. we went to camwhore - like always!! was really a great day. the best in my 17 years.oh no oh no. thats only till my bf comes along in future. HAHA.
had dinner at foodcourt first then off we headed to starbucks! saw a couple behind us. so sweet. got flowers and big stuff toy! omg. haha. valentine's day such a SWEETTT day!

afterwhich F and i went to buy sunflowers and went to stadium to do crazy things.

we laid on the grass to take pictures and oh my. our skin started to itch. but its all worth it. WHAT A PRICE TO PAY.

took two videos... was pretty shy cause there were people around and we were like talking real loud lah. HAHA. yeap. it is an unforgettable day. we parted longing for the night to be longer. and of course, the battery life of the camera to be longer.

OEI~ siao ah you. see what see!

HAHA. what a great way to start blogging :D

sunday
Cinderella's story! WEE. i wore a wig. and i look like ten years older? (ten years older only mah - 27 yrs old nia ) so scary lah! especiallt the singing part. i was like out of breath. hahha! the bride gown is like tight... haha! im married at seventeen! amazing. i told people that when my boyfriend comes, im gona scare him that i nearly got married once. HAHA. BLABLA. so fun to wear the wedding gown! wah. sad. only can get married once. (okay. sad only to the part where can only be pretty and wear the gown once in a lifetime- not that i wana be married to more than one guy -,-) but at least i have a preview of what being a bride is like at sixteen going on seventeen. HAHA. the feeling of wearing gown is like *top of the world* hahaha. okay whatever. I miss wearing gown! haha. the day passed sooo fast. afterwhich went to grandma's place to celebrate her bdae. and guess what. of my seventeen years of life, its the first time i HUGGED my grandma and told her i love her. WOOTS!

monday
day one of JESUS BRIDE! amazing :D woke up at 4am. HAHAHA. as usual.
wah. not easy to fast leh. butbutbut. i will. the flesh must come down so the spirit will rise up! heheh!

anyway, welcome russell to the big family! :D welcome welcome welcome!!!
oh man, God is just loving me and surprising me daily! man, not only did i have a tatste of what a bride is like at seventeen, i received something that a girls my age will not be able to get. *GRINS*
what more can i expect?

let me go.
i dont want you to go through all this because of me...
but you just don't understand.

JESUS' BRIDE
tomorrow is the BIG DAY! :D cinderella's story... its amazing... how just a few days ago, literally, you took me - dirty, filthy, so undeserving - and transformed me into your princess. i just allow myself to be so mesmerized by you, by your perfect will. i willingly submit to your wondrous plan in my life. you alone are worthy, O lord.

come as a bridegroom for your bride.
come and take me to your side.
i surrender Lord, to your arms open wide...

in one day's time will be the start of jesus' bride. and it marks a new beginning :P run no more.
had rehearsal today. dressed in wedding gown. haha. feel like im REALLY getting married. *dream on grace. you are only seventeen *
this drama was birth because every single one of us... desires a hero that will come and save us. its in our DNA :) and im so honoured. indeed we are all like cinderella, so sinful and dirty. but yet, he turned us into his bride, though so unworthy. im so excited that i get to really go through the motion. it is such an unforgetable experience. its real. dancing with Jesus.
love so amazing... that could make a bride of me...
i will never be the same again...

and its happy chinese new year! ang pohs horray!
nuts. okay. this is gona be so interesting. the first new year im gona spend memorising :D haha. but i will happily and willingly do it anyway. oh well. shall spend the whole of today w mum's relatives and tomorrow w dad's relatives.
oh no. my poorrr brother have to report back to work (evil laughters). will have to report to mandarin hotel on saturdat for practice. Just today the roles of cinderella are switched. im playing as clean cinderella on sunday and not dirty cinderella already. i wonder how im gona dance in HEELS. had i known this would haven... (plays with fingers) i would have took extra effort to look for lower heels that day at far east. HAHA. nonsense. this word reminds me of the day when shuhui and i scolded K 'nonsense lah he' together :P woots. comtemplating whether to go out for late movies. i mean reallll late. like midnight movies.
new year is a once-a-year meet up thing with my relatives. haha. as usual their comments will be like... ' wah! grow so tall already ah! ' heh. ooooohhhh. so long since i met baby! oh my oh my. haha. i know you miss me bad! :D i miss you too! it feels weird you know.
today is the FIRST day i did not pig till 12 please.. for the past few WEEKS i have been pigging till like twelve or one? and honestly, its not because i have transformed into a pig. its just that things are crushing real hard on me. beyoooonnnnddddd what i could bear (if you know, you know) and so the only way to escape was to SLEEEPPPP.. haha. but God is good. he rescued me ytd! met up with my super cute sweet lovely oh-what-ever. all thanks to her, i couldnt even force mmyself to sleep another minute since i woke up at 4am =.= interesting huh...
and i had two dreams during the little naps i took. scarryyyy... god is real interesting how he jsut alot stories in your dreams to be. HAHA. creative.... no wonder im so creative! cause im his creation! :P
could just remember how last year i was wishing that the next new year quickly come... FAST. ZOOM! and its a brand new year! WWWOOOWWW. live life with no regrets! i almost lost it all. praise be to God. its not too late yet. our God is a god of grace. now that grace has been exercised, truth is to be firm too... im not watching things pass me by. im snatching back what belongs to me :D
got to ciao!
perhaps we are just not meant to be.

baby i love you.
and i promise you are always in my prayer.
all i can do, i will do.
please be safe.