I Give Myself Away, So You Can Use Me.

I love the song 'i give myself away'. youtube it! its one of Poppe's favorite and he introduced it to me. when i heard it, i fell in love with it too. the lyrics are nice, but beyond just nice, the words are hard to leave out.

All my dreams, all my plans, Lord I place them in Your hands

My life is not my own, to You I belong

Those are heavy words. but heavy as they are, id echo the same prayer. is it easy? nope. like what my lyrics for one of my latest song : 'He doesnt want your everything, He just wants Your life'

Is it cause He is demanding? nope, He loves me too much and i know that my life in His hands can only be outstanding and great. but yet, if i truly know that, why am i struggling? why is it so painful? cause the flesh is strong, and there are many things i want, i want to live life the way i want to, to be with the person i want to, to dress the way i want to, to go to the places i want to.

Greatness- there is a price to pay.

I wish:

I wish the night would be never ending,

I wish the earth may just stop spinning,

and the clock would just stop ticking,

With just me and you, below the bright stars shining.

♥

Baby you know I'll be your princess ♥

It's Been A While.

The last update was before I started my attachment? (i meant REAL updates. not the one where i just copied and paste an article from the net) How have my readers been? Have you been coming to check this page out only to be disappointed that there aint much updates? haha. its kinda weird cause i duno how is reading and if there are even people who does.

But nonetheless, im glad that this time round when you find yourself at my page, there's something for you to read and maybe for you to be updated about my life :)

Again, its pictures upload time. too many words, i may just lose your attention. but even if the pictures distract you from the words, at least there are some pictures to keep you entertained.

Work life has been pretty alright... its now into the 6th week of my attachment already, and the colleagues are awesome ppl. they are all really friendly and nice towards me. And im looking forward for the next intern from SP to come in Nov :p

Today i did not report to work cause i was sick and went to see the doctor.

and i did silly things like painting my nails - weirdly. haha. bro is back home. and it was nice cause we ordered mac delivery and ate together. he sat beside me in my room to use the computer. cause i was using it. so maybe so he could use it, he bribed me with mac :p nah, kidding, he will still ask what id like to have (if he is in a good mood) its mixed feelings to have my brothers moving back home. im getting used to being home alone n now they are back. couldnt sleep well last night cause it was weird tt he was home? yea. sounds silly.

And the scary part?

They are gona bring two dogs from my dad's place to our place.

WHAT?! so that makes it three dogs in my house =.=

NOOO! i like my house smelling nice and clean! ARGH.

I dun wana come home to a war with three dogs like how it was when leslie was still free to roam about the house!

nonetheless, my life has been good and cant be better :)

Cause i have great friends :) and most importantly, God has been healing me, and making me whole..

Lately, there's a boy in my life.

i wana fall in love with Christ everyday cause only He and He alone can fill Him. something feels amiss now. and i feel like its a season where i need to plough deeper in my relationship with Him.. It feels like a season where i will draw so close to Him.

This is nicole :) my love.

she plays the violin too. and the way we met is pretty amazing given that we are still in contact. met up quite alot her lately. but now school has started so she's gona be busy :(

for those wonderin what my plans are aft poly, HAHA. im going back to poly again ;p to take apart time diploma in early childhood.. i dunno where God is leading me but i'll take a step of faith and He will light the way ahead for me. all i've got to do is to obey :) im really excited about tt. and ppl will probably think im mad. but,if thats my passion, why not?

I permed my hair today!

from: http://christianarticles.net/articledetail.php?artid=5778&catid=67&title=Change

Change is not something that we readily accept. For most of us, change is something that we avoid because we are so comfortable with what we are or where we are that trying to take a step away from our comfort zone is difficult. We don’t like to change the way we dress because we are already used to the kind of clothes we wear, we avoid the company of other people because they don’t act and think the way our friends do, we stop doing a certain task because it’s not just our usual thing. What we fail to realize is that change is necessary for us to grow and to develop as a person.

The process of change is definitely not easy and a person does not undergo total change overnight. Change is a gradual process and when a person is going through a transition stage, it takes one aspect of him to change at a time. For instance, having a new job would require a person to adapt to certain changes in the kind of responsibilities he will have, people he will need to relate to, rules and policies he will have to follow and many more. When we don’t like most of these changes, we tend to develop negative attitude towards them. In the case of relating with people, there will be a tendency for us to isolate ourselves because we are unwilling to accept people when they are different from us. When there are new responsibilities that seem inappropriate for us, we become defensive and would tend to consider the job as inappropriate for us as well. And if there are policies which are so hard for us to accept, we begin to be irresponsible as to not to follow them.

It is a great struggle to leave behind our usual ways to give way for the new ones. There are times when we just want to give up by retreating to our comfort zones and to not face what we have to face. We develop fear, intimidation and a sense of worthlessness which leave us hopeless and unable to move on. Our resort is to wallow into self pity and drown ourselves to depression.

Good thing we have God on our side. Philipppian 1:6 says being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. From the time we have accepted Christ into our hearts, He has been changing us by dealing with aspects of our lives that make us weak. It is through struggles that He is refining us. The best thing about being with God is that we don’t have to carry the loads ourselves, we just have to surrender everything to God and let Him change us. We don’t have to worry about how long we can keep Him on our side because He is definitely going to stay with us until the end. What we need to do is to stop doubting and start trusting that He will be able to change us; that even though the process of change is difficult and causes us to struggle, we will be able to overcome everything in the end and come out victorious.