I was feeling down but now I'm feeling good. why the sudden change?

allow me to share with you what happen today that took place in a few minutes that totally brought me to tears - tears of anger and sadness.

i was having my evening nap in the room then suddenly i was awoken by my brother's loud voice as he was talking with his friend on the phone. i went out of the room to scream at him, 'oei. talk softer lah' and that erupted the whole argument. apparently, i felt that he think he was king. He comes home, he says he want to use the com, i just let him use.his tone will be so nice. when i wan to use, he just say wait. and the waiting can take up to hours. when i told him to wait, he said 'wait what. i want to use now.' and his tone will be so demanding.

so after we quarrelled i went back to the room and bathe and afterwhich i spent time with God cause before i slept i told God after i wake up i will spend time with him. so though i really wanted to brood and watch tv, i told myself i must be God's delight. Earlier on dad called and he promised to do something but he didnt and that broke my heart. so i told myself, this is how God feels when i cancel appointment with him so i made myself take my the guitar and i stared strumming.

initially i started swearing my scolding my brother and got angry at the way he treats me since young. swear swear swear and the verse that says ' love one another, bearing with one another in love' came. then i said i don't want lah. i love him he take advantage of me how? then cried and scold until i shiok then i brought myself under submission. i started worshipping and singing in tongues and i told God i chose to love my brother till his heart turns back.then He showed me how my brother treats me is how i treated God. that before I knew him, he died on the cross for me and love me till my heart turns back to him. so i chose to love my brother =)

i texted him to apologise for not respecting him etc and i asked for his forgiveness and to give me time to love him and he replied 'ok'. haha. but that reply was enough to bring smiles to my face. i know my family will all turn back to him =)

okok. all this picture you see are just random pictures while i was studying alone =)
baby was stunned i will go all the way to *** to study. yeah. i was stun too. and i left t he house like 6.30 to go there to study.
oh. in conclusion, let's just reflect how we treat our siblings?

my heart really yearns to be loved and doted by them but i nvr get it. People are always going.. WOW! you go two brothers? they must have doted you alot. but sorry. NO. but things wont be the same in time to come. people. pray for me and my family okies!
LOVES!