i have a strong aversion to feeling like this. im filled with apprehension.
im foreign to such experience.
But yet i dont want to start erecting walls around me.
I want to vanquish all these giants in my life.
I WILL BE BOUYANT! =]

in the midst of this, God is just pruning me.
Now I understand more why you struggle like this already, the shame and embarassment.
in ways i am broken, i know i will not judge.
*On my way to becoming a better person.*