IM NOT PERFECT AND I HAVE MY WEAKNESSES TOO. I DON'T NEED TO PUT UP A SHOW THAT IM HAPPY OR ANYTHING NEAR TO THAT.
THIS IS BUT A WAY TO RELEASE MY ANGER. I DON'T CARE WHATS RIGHT, WHATS WRONG.
I WRITE WHAT I LIKE TO WRITE SO IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ANYTHING, JUST GET LOST BECAUSE PEOPLE LIKE YOU DON'T MAKE LIFE BETTER FOR ME.
AND I DON'T NEED YOU WHO PRETEND YOU ARE THAT SAINT TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO AND WHAT NOT TO - UNLESS YOU ARE SOMEONE I RESPECT. AND APPARENTLY TOO MANY PEOPLE THINK THEY ARE THAT SAINT. GET LOST.


WTF. $#*&%^&*(@$^$*(
YOU WANT ME TO FAIL I FAIL FOR YOU TO SEE LAH.
WE ARE MERELY STRANGERS WHO SHARE THE SAME BLOOD LIVING UNDER ONE ROOF.
BLOODY HELL.
DON'T PRETEND YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME.
ASSUMPTIONS ASSUMPTIONS. ASS YOU AND ASS ME. ATROCIOUS SHIT.
DAMN. I TAKE BACK THE FAILING FOR YOU TO SEE.
I WILL DO SO WELL FOR YOU TO SEE AND LET YOU KNOW THAT IT'S NOT BECAUSE YOU CONTRIBUTED TO IT.
YOU NEVER MADE ME FEEL THAT YOU WERE ONCE PROUD OF ME ANYWAY.
IM NOT EVEN BORN BECAUSE YOU WANT ME TO.
SO WHY THE F BRING ME TO THIS F-ing WORLD AND LEAVE ME ALONE.
WORK WORK AND WORK.
YOU APOLOGISED AND SAID THAT YOU ARE GUILTY THAT YOU CANT SPEND TIME WITH ME AND WHEN I FALL SICK, YOU AREN'T EVEN AWARE OF IT.
I SEE NO GUILT IN YOUR ACTIONS AFTER THE CONFESSION ANYWAY.
THINGS STILL REMAINED THE SAME.
SO WHY HONEY-COAT THE WORDS THAT TICKLES ME.
IF YOU THINK THAT RAISING YOUR VOICE AND RESULTING TO IGNORING ME WILL MAKE THINGS ANY BETTER AND MAKE ME MORE SUBMISSIVE, THINK AGAIN.
YOU DON'T KNOW ME.
JUST BECAUSE YOU GAVE BIRTH TO ME AND GIVE ME MONEY EVERYDAY GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO RAISE YOUR VOICE.
ANYONE ELSE CAN DO THIS JOB -AND DO IT BETTER THAN YOU.
IM ALREADY TRYING MY BEST TO BE THE BEST GIRL, THE BEST DAUGHTER.
I KNOW IT MUST HAVE BROKEN YOUR HEART WHEN KORKOR BECAME LIKE THIS.
BUT DON'T KEEP SAYING THAT HE IS USELESS.
ITS BECAUSE PARENTS LIKE YOU THAT TURN KIDS LIKE ___ REBELLIOUS.
DON'T PUSH YOUR LUCK.
OUR RELATIONSHIP NOW IS ALREADY MINUS INFINITY.
MY LIFE? - INDEPENDENCE.
I DON'T NEED TO DEPEND ON ANYONE.
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HURT I WAS BY YOUR WORDS.
THE PAIN IN THE CHEST WAS SO REAL AS THE TEARS ROLLED DOWN MY CHEEKS THROUGH THE NIGHT.
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TORMENTED BY ALL THE THOUGHTS I HAD LAST NIGHT.
EVEN IN MY SLEEP I WAS TELLING MYSELF TO STOP CRYING.
I MUST NOT CRY AND I WILL NOT APPEAR WEAK.
I WANA HARM MY OWN BODY.
SKIP MEALS. BUT DAMN. O LVL IS COMING.
OF ALL YOU GAVE ME ALL THIS AT THIS TIME.
IM NOT SAYING I MADE NO BLUNDER.
BUT YOU ARE NOT PERFECTLY RIGHT ANW.
WHO LIKES SUCH A HOME LIKE THIS?
I LOATHE THIS PLACE.
WHAT A MESS.

AND DAMN YOU.
NO ONE GAVE YOU PERMISSION TO USE THIS AS A TOPIC TO TALK ABOUT.


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OKAY. IM CRAZY MAYBE.
BUT THE ABOVE IS MERELY A VENT OF MY ANGER.
NOW THAT I HAVE VENT ENOUGH, I BETTER BE QUICK TO REPENT THAT I DIDNT RESPECT MY MUM AND THIS IS OUTWARD REBELLION.
I DON'T WANT MY LIFE TO BE NOT BLESSED BECAUSE I NEVER HONOUR MY PARENTS.
I'M SORRY, GOD.
BUT.. I CANT DENY THE FACT THAT IM HURT RIGHT?
SURLY I NEED TO TAKE A BREAK DON'T I?
I REALLY DON'T WANT TO TALK TO HER.
BUT I MUST NOT HARBOUR ANY UNFORGIVENESS I KNOW - FOR IT IS A BAIT OF SATAN. GOD, I BLOW THIS MATTER TO YOU AND I CHOSE TO FORGIVE. TAKE THIS ANGER AND HATRED AWAY AND FILL ME WITH YOUR PEACE AND LOVE TO LOVE MY MUM EVEN IN PAIN AND BRING HER BACK TO YOU ONCE AGAIN.
I THANK YOU THAT YOU HAVE A PLAN EVEN WHEN THIS DARKNESS TOOK OVER.
GOD, I CHOSE TO TRUST YOU AND I KNOW YOU LOVE ME AND YOU KNOW WHAT IS BEST AND YOU HAVE A PLAN FOR ME THAT WILL ONLY MAKE ME PROSPEROUS AND SUCCESSFUL.
GOD, I AGREE WITH YOU THAT THAT WILL BE MY LIFE.
AMEN

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AT THE FOOT OF THE CROSS

WHERE GRACE AND SUFFERING MEET

YOU HAVE SHOWN ME YOUR LOVE

THROUGH THE JUDGEMENT YOU RECEIVED

BRIDGE:

AND YOU'VE WON MY HEART

YES YOU'VE WON MY HEART

CHORUS:

NOW I CAN

TRADE THIS ASHES IN FOR BEAUTY

AND WEAR FORGIVENESS LIKE A CROWN

COMING TO KISS THE FOOT OF MERCY

I LAY EVERY BURDEN DOWN

AT THE FOOT OF THE CROSS

AT THE FOOT OF THE CROSS

WHERE I AM MADE COMPLETE

YOU HAVE GIVEN ME LIFE

THROUGH THE DEATH YOU BORE FOR ME

I KNOW THAT SOME OF US OUT THERE ARE HAVING PROBLEMS WITH OUR PARENTS, THEIR NAGGINGS AND ALL.
I WANT TO SAY THAT I UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL BECAUSE I WENT THROUGH IT TOO - JUST YESTERDAY NIGHT.
BUT YOU KNOW, GOD HAS SET ME FREE, AND HE WILL SET YOU FREE.
SHALL WE JUST QUIETEN DOWN OUR HEARTS NOW AND JUST ALLOW THE WORDS OF THIS SONG TO JUST MINISTER TO US AND KNOW THAT WE CAN LAY OUR BURDEN, OUR PAIN AND HURTS AT THE FOOT OF THE CROSS.
GOD BLESS YOU THIS DAY