life transformed.

went to spiritual dad and mum's house to stay for the night :) cause there's austin hills tomorrow. so met miracle to have our 'last breakfast'. when she told me that on msn, my mind connected last breakfast to something negative. as if we are gonna part for life and so on. then it took me awhile to get her meaning of last breakfast.
Today is the last day of the ten days of BREAK from fasting and waking early at 4am. so as of tomorrow till october, we will be fasting breakfast and thus the meaning - last breakfast. HAHA! thus we met for our breakfast at macdonald, our all time favourite breakfast. then went home and practice the song 'canon in D' with the guitar and met mum in the noon at boon lay station.

Mum knew i love sparkling juice so she bought me a bottle. a WHOLE bottle to myself :) but im so nice i shared it with korkor. HAHA. had yummy dinner and a good talk with korkor about poly life etc. fear and thoughts began to get a hold of me. after awhile i went to sit on the white throne and holy spirit actually told me im thinking too much and he enlighten me to see things in a different view. in mere minutes i feel so set free. then i went to jiejie's room to spend time with God. one of the highlight of the sermon on last sunday was this : That God will first reveal to you his plan about you first before you ask for confirmation. thus i commited the whole poly thing into his hands and He began to speak to me through the word and began to show me about life for me in Poly. about my studies, about my friends etc. AMAZING. i can't wait to start school! though sometimes fear still kind of creep in, i know God will conquer it with me.

went to bed at 9.30pm cause tomorrow have to wake up at 4am. but i just couldnt fall asleep till about 11 plus? thats TORTURING alright. i guess its because im so used to late nights and all so my body clock arent used to it.

tuesday, 1st april
and the alarm clock rang at four in the morning. i was wide awake. i knew today was the beginning of the six months battle to Purple heart. and i must have a good beginning. do you know that when you fail to have a good beginning, your whole morale kind of just drop? i failed to wake up for JB the first day due to some error with the alarm. and i was real disappointed. maybe because of that, i knew that i will not want history to repeat again. and i was sure glad i stayed over at mum and dad's place cause i know i sure will have a very good start. thus the family of five gathered at the living room and dad began to strum the guitar and we all sang in tongues and prayed and worshipped God. it was really encouraging. usually when you are at home and you do it alone, you kind of want to fall asleep. but in a group, you just wont, knowing that everyone else is worshipping God together. the feeling is just so marvellous. and God is just so good to allow me to embark on this long journey with such a great start. at about 7.30 we headed for austin hills in malaysia.
the lessons were just superb. SUPERB. and more superb. we all knew that it was life transforming. our minds were renewed and we are all setting our mind on the things above. things that will not be shaken. with the help of the holy spirit's conviction, we all decided to watch our sleeping time and be disciplined. words just cant express the impact of that day. may I be that tangible result of the impact.

wednesday, 2nd april

went to VP in the office in the morning. a little bicycles in the morning, but God is just training all of us :) i love you baby! doctor curtis was invited to come speak to us. after JB, i have learnt that from every sermon, capture the highlights of it and slowly chew it. no point writing too many notes and nothing gets into the brain. so here you go. he taught us that we must speak the truth because then will people trust you. he shared about his story of how when he was still young, he told the truth to his officer and when he was charged of a crime he did not do, the officer trusted that he did not do it because he said he didnt and he was free. He also told us that each of us has at least one guardian angel, whether you can see him or not. that was a great lesson because though at the back of my mind i knew that i have a guardian angel, i kinda forgot about it :)
this few days had been so life transforming.
of course hearers who are not doers do not benefit and i am a DOER!!